fear and loathing in maryland
Second interview for Maine job on Tuesday. May have a lead on a job here (maybe not). That listing was dropped off by a colleague while I was in the middle of surgery with 'let me know if you're interested' but few details. Then I forgot the paper at work which is driving me nuts.
We just finished week 7 of the 12 weeks I was given to shut things down and (presumably) find another position. Somewhere. Past the halfway point. Time is dragging and speeding up. Austerity budget is working well; money is being put back for the Down Times.
I'm scared to death of the changes that may occur. And scared to death of things staying the same. The listing (I think, maybe, could be) for a position that just opened up same place, same floor I work on now. Part of me wants to flounce, better job, cool place to live, different possibilities. Sucks to be you, University! Part of me wants to cling, to stay, to keep my house, the schools, R's oncologist, the familiar. I dread leaving, I dread staying. Most of all I dread the decision, which is not just mine but R's and the boys. Choices narrow and fall behind as the current speeds on.
And (insert ironic laugh) no one has even offered me a position yet! Talk about spinning the old hamster wheel!
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We just finished week 7 of the 12 weeks I was given to shut things down and (presumably) find another position. Somewhere. Past the halfway point. Time is dragging and speeding up. Austerity budget is working well; money is being put back for the Down Times.
I'm scared to death of the changes that may occur. And scared to death of things staying the same. The listing (I think, maybe, could be) for a position that just opened up same place, same floor I work on now. Part of me wants to flounce, better job, cool place to live, different possibilities. Sucks to be you, University! Part of me wants to cling, to stay, to keep my house, the schools, R's oncologist, the familiar. I dread leaving, I dread staying. Most of all I dread the decision, which is not just mine but R's and the boys. Choices narrow and fall behind as the current speeds on.
And (insert ironic laugh) no one has even offered me a position yet! Talk about spinning the old hamster wheel!
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