it could be always worst?...
well today i went by the old legend of things could always be worst. that's all it felt like today. i kept falling down hill and when i hit the bottom i have nothing left to hold onto or save myself with.
today makes me feel liek i lost dear deep friends with me irl. i lost someone i confided in a lot. she knew and held all my emotions. and then it just broke like a vase. she left. i could stop her or fix anything. next real life just slaps me in the face saying"piss off". had a chance with a girl irl and things just went down the drain. gods with things would go right somewere. then i find out someone else dear to me, was gone for a while and seems is going to be gone a while.
my heart feels like shit. feel like i wanna die. i want comfurt and companionship. but i feel like i can't do anything right, let alone talk to people any more. feels like i just wanna go out and shoot myself.
and might have just been me, but not a sing;e person replied to post before this one... *sighs* the world has forgotten and left me a distant memory in the past. i wish it wouldn't have been so soon. i wish i could have done more...
tonight i just want my world to end so others can go on with out me... feels like no one cares...
*waves *
today makes me feel liek i lost dear deep friends with me irl. i lost someone i confided in a lot. she knew and held all my emotions. and then it just broke like a vase. she left. i could stop her or fix anything. next real life just slaps me in the face saying"piss off". had a chance with a girl irl and things just went down the drain. gods with things would go right somewere. then i find out someone else dear to me, was gone for a while and seems is going to be gone a while.
my heart feels like shit. feel like i wanna die. i want comfurt and companionship. but i feel like i can't do anything right, let alone talk to people any more. feels like i just wanna go out and shoot myself.
and might have just been me, but not a sing;e person replied to post before this one... *sighs* the world has forgotten and left me a distant memory in the past. i wish it wouldn't have been so soon. i wish i could have done more...
tonight i just want my world to end so others can go on with out me... feels like no one cares...
*waves *