badur

[vjr]

...*rubs face* last night was definately the interesting time of my life. had like 50 dreams all at once. and woke up this morning and just couldn't remember any of them. Body Ached. brain hurt. and then i realized what time is was. Yesterday. I was putzing about home. My day off. and I decided to just talk to friends, eat some food, and i just was lazy yesterday. I went and laided down in my room around 6:00pm last night, i tossed and turns, fought the dreams and nightmares that i had new were going to come. and then I wake up.... at 8:30 am the next day. YIKES! my brain just decided i needed downtime and the body didn't fight it. lol. but anyways after that things have been back and forth today. I finally decided to wonder back to LJ for the first time in...*checks the time keeper* 53 weeks. heh. i've been doing best to talk to friends i've missed for so long. I've been pretty lonely and down and out lately so i've just been working on getting things under control. So i've been dealing with it the best way i know how. I know it's not the best let alone the only way i could. it's just that i was too lazy to really wanna do anything. I've just been hiding away and keeping to myself mostly. But eh, it happens and doing my best to work past it. So far as things go I've just been chained up in my mental memories and pacing myself as best i could.

So as far as things go i'm slowly doing my best to get things back on track. the trained derailed about 1mile ago...(1 year ago) but like life. not everything can change over night so we take it one step at a time.