Don't judge me by my appearance asswipe.
I think I have probably written about this topic in the past, but it is a constant irritation so I'm going to rant again.
I realize that I am small in stature, that I look more masculine than feminine, and that I perpetually look like I am about 12 years old. This is my life. This is how I've always been, and there's not a whole lot I can do about it. But it really gets on my nerves when people assume that I am only 12 years old, and then ask me where my mother is. This has happened to me twice, just this week. The first was at the video store. I was renting R-rated horror movies and the grouchy woman at the counter asked me where my mother was. I said, "I'm 28 years old, I don't need my mother." The woman was still skeptical, and asked me my date of birth. She then asked for a credit card for verification. What the fuck? Its a movie rental, and if I say I'm 28, don't ask me again. How many years have I been going to that store? Hmm, 11. You would think by now things would be kosher. Then today I had a Dr. appointment. I went to the counter and said "Michelle Jarvie, here to see Dr. xxxx. The woman looked at me and asked "where's Michelle?" "I'm Michelle." "Is your mother here?" "No. I'm 28 years old." "Oh, I'm sorry." Strange looks... If I was 12 would I be coming to the Doctor's by myself in the first place? No. Did you look at my chart which happens to have my age on it and everything is signed by ME, not my mother? Then when the nurse called my name and I walked up to her, she just looked at me for about 5 seconds in confusion, looking at my chart and then back at me. I said "um, I'm Michelle.." The funny thing is, when I buy alcohol, I don't always get carded, but in instances where I shouldn't need ID, people ask if my mother is around to vouch for me. What the fuck? I get so sick of it. Yeah, I look young, I should be thankful. Just do your fucking job and don't hassle me so much. Or simply ask for ID. Don't ask me if my fucking mother is with me! Because quite frankly, knowing that I look 12, why would I try to buy alcohol, rent R-rated movies, etc if I WASN'T old enough to do so? Obviously I know I would get stopped.
I don't know why, but this kind of stuff really gets to me. I just want to be left alone. Why do people have to question everything? So what if I don't fit perfectly into their narrow little view of how people should look? If I say I am this person, then just shut up and finish whatever needs to be done. I'm sure it will be even more fun moving to a new town. No one knows me, and everyone will ask me where my mother is... Fuck You!
I realize that I am small in stature, that I look more masculine than feminine, and that I perpetually look like I am about 12 years old. This is my life. This is how I've always been, and there's not a whole lot I can do about it. But it really gets on my nerves when people assume that I am only 12 years old, and then ask me where my mother is. This has happened to me twice, just this week. The first was at the video store. I was renting R-rated horror movies and the grouchy woman at the counter asked me where my mother was. I said, "I'm 28 years old, I don't need my mother." The woman was still skeptical, and asked me my date of birth. She then asked for a credit card for verification. What the fuck? Its a movie rental, and if I say I'm 28, don't ask me again. How many years have I been going to that store? Hmm, 11. You would think by now things would be kosher. Then today I had a Dr. appointment. I went to the counter and said "Michelle Jarvie, here to see Dr. xxxx. The woman looked at me and asked "where's Michelle?" "I'm Michelle." "Is your mother here?" "No. I'm 28 years old." "Oh, I'm sorry." Strange looks... If I was 12 would I be coming to the Doctor's by myself in the first place? No. Did you look at my chart which happens to have my age on it and everything is signed by ME, not my mother? Then when the nurse called my name and I walked up to her, she just looked at me for about 5 seconds in confusion, looking at my chart and then back at me. I said "um, I'm Michelle.." The funny thing is, when I buy alcohol, I don't always get carded, but in instances where I shouldn't need ID, people ask if my mother is around to vouch for me. What the fuck? I get so sick of it. Yeah, I look young, I should be thankful. Just do your fucking job and don't hassle me so much. Or simply ask for ID. Don't ask me if my fucking mother is with me! Because quite frankly, knowing that I look 12, why would I try to buy alcohol, rent R-rated movies, etc if I WASN'T old enough to do so? Obviously I know I would get stopped.
I don't know why, but this kind of stuff really gets to me. I just want to be left alone. Why do people have to question everything? So what if I don't fit perfectly into their narrow little view of how people should look? If I say I am this person, then just shut up and finish whatever needs to be done. I'm sure it will be even more fun moving to a new town. No one knows me, and everyone will ask me where my mother is... Fuck You!