i'm just trying to evolve...
i'm becoming transfixed with nature and my part in it, which i believe just signifies i'm finally waking up...
and a myriad of sidetracks distract me from the path. i don't blame them...it is in the nature of a sidetrack to distract. and i don't blame myself...change is in my nature...and also an impulse to become distracted with change.
my path is mostly untravelled because of such tourist traps.
and it's not such a boring path...it's actually quite pleasant. knotted elms tunnel over it, reaching out to each other from either side with elderly fingers. wildflowers color the edges, animals cross ahead of me and sometimes stop to look, and the sun dances between the branches to add levity to such a long journey.
but what's this? between two elms i can see a forgotten forest on my right. is this where that deer came from...the one that i almost hit with my car the night i heard my grandmother was dead?
there are so many animals...why don't they have a path? and why are they near mine? look at them...see how they frolic and flit? i am like them. i want to enjoy myself for the sake of enjoyment.
but when i hop off the track to go to the enchanted forest and play with the animals...they scatter. and then so does my mind. and i turn back looking for something i've forgotten or lost. it was just here, whatever it was. i was going somewhere wasn't i? i look back between the elms and i see nothing.
and a myriad of sidetracks distract me from the path. i don't blame them...it is in the nature of a sidetrack to distract. and i don't blame myself...change is in my nature...and also an impulse to become distracted with change.
my path is mostly untravelled because of such tourist traps.
and it's not such a boring path...it's actually quite pleasant. knotted elms tunnel over it, reaching out to each other from either side with elderly fingers. wildflowers color the edges, animals cross ahead of me and sometimes stop to look, and the sun dances between the branches to add levity to such a long journey.
but what's this? between two elms i can see a forgotten forest on my right. is this where that deer came from...the one that i almost hit with my car the night i heard my grandmother was dead?
there are so many animals...why don't they have a path? and why are they near mine? look at them...see how they frolic and flit? i am like them. i want to enjoy myself for the sake of enjoyment.
but when i hop off the track to go to the enchanted forest and play with the animals...they scatter. and then so does my mind. and i turn back looking for something i've forgotten or lost. it was just here, whatever it was. i was going somewhere wasn't i? i look back between the elms and i see nothing.