make me a liar, one big disaster
Some songs you just have to wiggle to. This is one of them.
I'm still in that primal hunting lioness mode, and I'm not sure how to get out of it. If I see a man who is even remotely available, my mind zooms into overdrive and I imagine how best to get him to like me. My hormones have a big party and decide it's a great idea to have sex tonight, somehow, some way. Then the wine wears off, I fall into bed, and wonder what the hell I was thinking all night.
BTW, this did not happen tonight. I simply notice it if I am ever introduced to a young person of the opposite sex. It's like I constantly have my feelers out, in case an eligible one passes by - like if I miss one, I might miss an opportunity of lifelong happiness. Or maybe I'm just sick of spending my nights alone/in the company of men I do not love. Or maybe I'm fucking 26 and all of my friends are getting married. Whatever.
Tonight was a whirlwind. Everyone showed up and left around about the same times, no one stayed too late, and I didn't have a ton of time to mingle with everyone as much as I wanted. We all still had fun and drank and ate munchies but the atmosphere was at the same time energetic and lethargic. Almost everyone had to leave early for work tomorrow, so no one got too crazy due to the inevitable drive home. Sigh. I guess I'll save those drunken conversations at 2 am for special one-on-one nights with best friends from forever ago.
Seeing friends with their boyfriends makes me miss Jeff like a piece of my heart broke off and got lost. Perhaps it did. I haven't thought about him like that in a while, and just wishing for someone at my side made me instinctively envision him as that someone. I wish I didn't have to make him angry with me just so he'd leave me alone - we might've been able to stay friends. Maybe. I'd rather not think about it just now.
Let's see what the rest of this wondrous vacation brings. It is now time to sleep way too little and try to prepare for another family lunch in the morning. Like I care about sleep when I am around all these amazing friends - I could jump to the moon and still land on my feet.
I'm still in that primal hunting lioness mode, and I'm not sure how to get out of it. If I see a man who is even remotely available, my mind zooms into overdrive and I imagine how best to get him to like me. My hormones have a big party and decide it's a great idea to have sex tonight, somehow, some way. Then the wine wears off, I fall into bed, and wonder what the hell I was thinking all night.
BTW, this did not happen tonight. I simply notice it if I am ever introduced to a young person of the opposite sex. It's like I constantly have my feelers out, in case an eligible one passes by - like if I miss one, I might miss an opportunity of lifelong happiness. Or maybe I'm just sick of spending my nights alone/in the company of men I do not love. Or maybe I'm fucking 26 and all of my friends are getting married. Whatever.
Tonight was a whirlwind. Everyone showed up and left around about the same times, no one stayed too late, and I didn't have a ton of time to mingle with everyone as much as I wanted. We all still had fun and drank and ate munchies but the atmosphere was at the same time energetic and lethargic. Almost everyone had to leave early for work tomorrow, so no one got too crazy due to the inevitable drive home. Sigh. I guess I'll save those drunken conversations at 2 am for special one-on-one nights with best friends from forever ago.
Seeing friends with their boyfriends makes me miss Jeff like a piece of my heart broke off and got lost. Perhaps it did. I haven't thought about him like that in a while, and just wishing for someone at my side made me instinctively envision him as that someone. I wish I didn't have to make him angry with me just so he'd leave me alone - we might've been able to stay friends. Maybe. I'd rather not think about it just now.
Let's see what the rest of this wondrous vacation brings. It is now time to sleep way too little and try to prepare for another family lunch in the morning. Like I care about sleep when I am around all these amazing friends - I could jump to the moon and still land on my feet.