gahhhhh...
as i read about other people's lives, i realize how much it all starts to sound... the same. i don't understand it. you think to yourself "no one understands, no one knows what it's like," but then you see someone else feels the same. what's different then? what makes people seem so... together? the outside, the face they put on, the image they give you. i look at (unnamed girl) and think she's got it all. the cute boyfriend, the good looks, the clever and funny attitude, and the best thing is she doesn't have to try. but i read what's going on in her mind and out come the insecurities. all those little worries that are troubling me too. and i wonder why? why do people have to hide it all?
oh right, cuz you don't make friends that way. i don't hide it, i put it all out there for everyone to see, and what happens? it's too much... just too much. so then how do you know what to keep to yourself and what not? how do you balance it all? ironically, everyone says that people aren't honest enough, open enough. i can't seem to keep people around long enough to figure it out. and yet here it is again too much of what people don't want to see or hear.
what do you do? now is the time to change, to do something about it. before it's too late...before you're...stuck but how? what about me is acceptable? what's ok for me to put out there? it's sad to think that any of it isn't. i don't want to know that what makes me me is exactly what people don't want to know. how does it all work? how does this make any sense? what is wrong with people? am i right for wanting people to do it my way? or am i wrong and just no one ever told me? and the questions don't end there...all i can end with is gaaahhhhh...
"I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved"
oh right, cuz you don't make friends that way. i don't hide it, i put it all out there for everyone to see, and what happens? it's too much... just too much. so then how do you know what to keep to yourself and what not? how do you balance it all? ironically, everyone says that people aren't honest enough, open enough. i can't seem to keep people around long enough to figure it out. and yet here it is again too much of what people don't want to see or hear.
what do you do? now is the time to change, to do something about it. before it's too late...before you're...stuck but how? what about me is acceptable? what's ok for me to put out there? it's sad to think that any of it isn't. i don't want to know that what makes me me is exactly what people don't want to know. how does it all work? how does this make any sense? what is wrong with people? am i right for wanting people to do it my way? or am i wrong and just no one ever told me? and the questions don't end there...all i can end with is gaaahhhhh...
"I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved"