~This Type of Thinking Could Do Us In~
I have came to the startling conclusion that i have been very angry lately. I don't know why but people piss me off. Not everything revolves around ones self. Shit happens, get over it. Work has really been a bummer also. Holiday season tends to bring out the worst in people, which is a complete 180 from the whole holiday cheer bullshit. Maybe thats why I am bitter. I get tired of dealing with people that are stressing from the holidays, which in turn stresses me out and then it ruins my good time. It really doesn't help that on the weekends i have to listen to Christmas music for 8 hours strait, or that primarily all of the returns go to our Christmas isles which plays the same song over and over again. I am not a repetitive person, especially when it comes to Christmas music. The sad thing is though, I actually like Christmas. I like the decorations, i like the T.V shows as much as i hate to admit it, and i like the smells that accompany along Christmas time. Every year my family puts up an embarrassing display of Christmas decorations, but every year i look forwards to it. This year we only put up a quarter of them, more than likely because Chelsea is away at college. The funny thing about it is, she hates them! I am still home, I still live here and i always really looked forwards to seeing them all lit up when i come home from school, work or other social activities. I will say in my parents defense that it was like 15 degrees when we finally got around to putting them up and i wasn't really willing to stand outside for like 6 hours while we adorned our house. I guess now my dad like them off at 9:00pm when he goes to bed, so by the time i get to come home and enjoy them, they aren't even lit anymore. On top of my holiday woes, it is final week. I am pretty sure that i have an ulcer farm growing in my stomach. I don't ever care that much about my grades, but this semester i decided to put forth a little effort. The little effort became a big fiasco and now i am finding it hard to even get time to eat. I have been tutoring with my math professor, and its real nice cause he is my neighbor. That man is a saint. He got me from a 30 percent average on my tests to an 87 percent. Talk about a total turn around. And i am actually getting the material which is the awesome part. He knows me well enough that he knows exactly how to explain things so I can understand them, and he does well with recognizing what face i make goes to which thought that i am currently having. I cannot even begin put into words how much i appreciate what he has done for me in the last 14 weeks. I am absolutely elated that i will get a high b in a math class. My family and i all though that that was impossible. Ha, I showed us! Another good thing is that Karl and i are still great! He is just awesome. He knows when to leave me alone, and normally how to handle certain situations, he just has a problem with listening though. I couldn't have asked for a better future husband. His family has officially moved out and we have been working diligently on his house. What we have finished looks amazing, and normally people say that home projects was the true test of their relationship, but Karl and i have not had a single problem with each other yet. It has been quite enjoyable though, good quality bonding time, something that we both desperately needed i believe. My math grade, Karl, and an odd assortment of music and my mom (my hero)is what keeps me going everyday, because there are sometimes that i believe that i am going to absolutely lose it. I would feel bad for the poor sonuvabitch that was in my way when i finally lose it, because its inevitable. I guess its part of adulthood, and i am trying to transition as smoothly as possible. Later,scarecrow is out.