WOW
Lol I feel so bad for leaving this for 3 months I am so sorry.
Well better admit that I didn't pass NCEA level 3. I feel so gutted about that. I did try really hard. But i am doig an average A here so it masn't matter much. Just means that when I go for my industry placement I want to do a night course to gain those 3 more credits.
PIHMS is different. I haven't been eating much but am determined to stay even if it is not perfect. Anythign that isn't my home won't be. I have friends even though I still quite alone. Nothing can replace the friends and family I have back home. xoxox
I got really homesick a while ago and still feel so alone. I am going to have to keep going back home. Feel normal again and then come back and try to hold onto that feeling. When Mike comes up I feel normal again but that goes away when he leaves. I think that is why I do so much so assignments it takes my mind off being alone. If only for a little while.
Exams next week. Man that happend fast. I think I am prepared for the communicatiosn and ocmputing, its tourism and marketing I am most worried about.
Mike came over. I love him so much. I never wnt to forget that. I want ot be with him forever. He made me a beautiful sculpture for valentines and a screen saver and large picture frame full of things i love for our one year anniversary. I hate how he always has to see me weak and crying. I want to be strong for him. Let him see me confident and my spirit not weak.
I nearly criued yesturday. April said we will break up and he will find someone else becuase he is my first. SHE KNOWS NOTHING. just because she has fukd more people than me she thinks she konws everythig about relationships. she does not. I am goign to hold on to mike as long as i can.
I can't wait to come down for easter. It might be a bit of a rush to get everything done. Right now I have to find Ms Manu and see if I can be first 24th friday for my mock interview as I need to catch a plane for dads bday. Hopefully she says it is ok.
Well. Thats that. My List:
- be strong for Mike
- get fit so i am sexy
- keep working hard.
Till next time ~ So long
Well better admit that I didn't pass NCEA level 3. I feel so gutted about that. I did try really hard. But i am doig an average A here so it masn't matter much. Just means that when I go for my industry placement I want to do a night course to gain those 3 more credits.
PIHMS is different. I haven't been eating much but am determined to stay even if it is not perfect. Anythign that isn't my home won't be. I have friends even though I still quite alone. Nothing can replace the friends and family I have back home. xoxox
I got really homesick a while ago and still feel so alone. I am going to have to keep going back home. Feel normal again and then come back and try to hold onto that feeling. When Mike comes up I feel normal again but that goes away when he leaves. I think that is why I do so much so assignments it takes my mind off being alone. If only for a little while.
Exams next week. Man that happend fast. I think I am prepared for the communicatiosn and ocmputing, its tourism and marketing I am most worried about.
Mike came over. I love him so much. I never wnt to forget that. I want ot be with him forever. He made me a beautiful sculpture for valentines and a screen saver and large picture frame full of things i love for our one year anniversary. I hate how he always has to see me weak and crying. I want to be strong for him. Let him see me confident and my spirit not weak.
I nearly criued yesturday. April said we will break up and he will find someone else becuase he is my first. SHE KNOWS NOTHING. just because she has fukd more people than me she thinks she konws everythig about relationships. she does not. I am goign to hold on to mike as long as i can.
I can't wait to come down for easter. It might be a bit of a rush to get everything done. Right now I have to find Ms Manu and see if I can be first 24th friday for my mock interview as I need to catch a plane for dads bday. Hopefully she says it is ok.
Well. Thats that. My List:
- be strong for Mike
- get fit so i am sexy
- keep working hard.
Till next time ~ So long