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Nobody really talks to me anymore. Brennen does, and I pretty much hear what's going on through him, and that's fucking uncool. I know Katie has been busy lately, but she still managed to e-mail a note to me. That means so much to me sis, you have no idea. Even though you're busy you still take the time to see how I'm doing. You truly truly are my best friend. ♥
My God-brother Liam and his parents came to visit for my Dad's 40th B-day party. Omg I hate kids and everything, but I can make an exception for Liam. He rocks Gir stylez. I mean really, he is so fucking random it's great! I was plying with him, and I had him in my arms horizontally, and I was rolling him up and down in my arms like a yo-yo or something and he's all: ah..ah..ah..BANANA!! ah.. He slays me he's so awesome!! XXDD
But even Liam's Gir-cuteness can't distract me from my dipressed feelings for long. *le sigh*
I'm feeling really lonely. ;___; Everyone is hooking up with people, or have feelings for people, or are flirting with people, and generally having a good time. Except me. As. Fucking. Usual. What the hell is wrong with me that people find me so fucking forgettable. I'm trying to be out going, but it's not getting me anywhere! I don't want to force myself to do things, but maybe I should go out to clubs, or gigs or something, if only to meet people. Meet someone. I'm not selfish, I only need one person. One lover if you will. Someone to care for, someone to care for me. Because god fucking knows that there doesn't seem to be a lot of care going my way. (save for Katie, cause she's the best, best friend ever)
Yeah whatever, fuck everyone. Right to fucking hell. >>
My God-brother Liam and his parents came to visit for my Dad's 40th B-day party. Omg I hate kids and everything, but I can make an exception for Liam. He rocks Gir stylez. I mean really, he is so fucking random it's great! I was plying with him, and I had him in my arms horizontally, and I was rolling him up and down in my arms like a yo-yo or something and he's all: ah..ah..ah..BANANA!! ah.. He slays me he's so awesome!! XXDD
But even Liam's Gir-cuteness can't distract me from my dipressed feelings for long. *le sigh*
I'm feeling really lonely. ;___; Everyone is hooking up with people, or have feelings for people, or are flirting with people, and generally having a good time. Except me. As. Fucking. Usual. What the hell is wrong with me that people find me so fucking forgettable. I'm trying to be out going, but it's not getting me anywhere! I don't want to force myself to do things, but maybe I should go out to clubs, or gigs or something, if only to meet people. Meet someone. I'm not selfish, I only need one person. One lover if you will. Someone to care for, someone to care for me. Because god fucking knows that there doesn't seem to be a lot of care going my way. (save for Katie, cause she's the best, best friend ever)
Yeah whatever, fuck everyone. Right to fucking hell. >>