5 days > 1 year
I rarely update with my emotions. My livejournal was not created so that everyone could see what im feeling. It was simply made for the sole benefit of if people cared, they could see what i've been doing for the past days, weeks, months, etc.
I have become the type of person who feels like if they arent working or doing something active, they are doing something wrong. I am an emotionally walled perfectionist. Until recently, i thought it was a curse, because nothing was ever good enough for me, and i kept having to do things myself, fix things myself, or get rid of them. My job is a good example of that, as well as school, and my car, and girls. I am full speed, or dead. This has changed in the past week. It's all because of her. I have watched a few movies with her, fallen asleep next to her, woken up next to her, and been completely memorized by her. School, work, sleep, repeat. That was my schedule for so long, and now it's different. Now i have something to actually work for, something to go to school for, something to fall asleep to. 5 days i've known her. Hasnt been one second of akwardness, not one second of bordom, not one second of thinking about anyone except her. This feeling is unexplainable, i have never felt it before. Scary? Indeed. I am going for a major in english words, with a minor in german words. I'll tell you right now, both of those languages combined cant explain how im feeling. In 5 days she has already achieved more perfection than any other girl i have known. Her eyes, I need to take a picture of just her eyes because i could stare at them forever. I have never seen eyes like hers before. They are a pale blue, almost grey, and sparkle like two giant diamonds. Her eyes light up her entire face. Her hair is blonde, shoulder length, and no matter how it's done, looks beautiful. It doesnt matter what time of day, what she's wearing, what she's doing, or even if she's awake, she is absolutely gorgeous. In 5 days i have pages and pages of good things to say about her. I could go on for hours. But unfortunately, i must perfect my english paper, and i want to save some of the good images for myself. Good night.
I have become the type of person who feels like if they arent working or doing something active, they are doing something wrong. I am an emotionally walled perfectionist. Until recently, i thought it was a curse, because nothing was ever good enough for me, and i kept having to do things myself, fix things myself, or get rid of them. My job is a good example of that, as well as school, and my car, and girls. I am full speed, or dead. This has changed in the past week. It's all because of her. I have watched a few movies with her, fallen asleep next to her, woken up next to her, and been completely memorized by her. School, work, sleep, repeat. That was my schedule for so long, and now it's different. Now i have something to actually work for, something to go to school for, something to fall asleep to. 5 days i've known her. Hasnt been one second of akwardness, not one second of bordom, not one second of thinking about anyone except her. This feeling is unexplainable, i have never felt it before. Scary? Indeed. I am going for a major in english words, with a minor in german words. I'll tell you right now, both of those languages combined cant explain how im feeling. In 5 days she has already achieved more perfection than any other girl i have known. Her eyes, I need to take a picture of just her eyes because i could stare at them forever. I have never seen eyes like hers before. They are a pale blue, almost grey, and sparkle like two giant diamonds. Her eyes light up her entire face. Her hair is blonde, shoulder length, and no matter how it's done, looks beautiful. It doesnt matter what time of day, what she's wearing, what she's doing, or even if she's awake, she is absolutely gorgeous. In 5 days i have pages and pages of good things to say about her. I could go on for hours. But unfortunately, i must perfect my english paper, and i want to save some of the good images for myself. Good night.