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i hate being scared. i hate hospitals. i hate the emergency room. i hate i.v. needles and oxygen masks. i hate cold stethoscopes. i hate being scared. i hate being woken up every 4 hours to get shot up or medicated somehow. i hate getting my blood pressure taken. i hate the hospital bill. i hate almost dying. i hate being really scared. i hate not being able to breathe. i hate almost dying. i hate being scared. i hate being scared. i hate wanting to cry all the time. i hate not being in control of myself. i hate being hooked up to machines. i hate being so tired now. i hate being scared.