Shifting phases
I almost miss insomnia. The calm and quiet it provides.
And so here I am, awake when I shouldn't be. Child sleeping.
Yes, child. A son.
Benjamin.
How amazing.
Here I am. Awake. Contemplating the past - the present - the future.
Everything I have ever done has brought me to this moment. Now. Here.
Here I am. Alive. A father.
A new filter to look through. A new perspective.
My journey isn't over. His is just beginning. Wonderful things to come.
Retriangulated. Recalibrated.
Many things I regret. Many things I have learned from. Many things I have yet to do.
Sometimes I miss the way things were - change can be difficult to bare, but life must perpetuate itself.
Life is always moving forward, so I too must move forward. Lest I be lost in nostalgia.
But tonight is a night for just that - nostalgia.
Ah, Livejournal. You have brought me many things. Many experiences.
I am grateful for knowing you, for being a part of this grand experiment in human interaction.
Amazing how the universe can set things in motion. Cosmic effect. Caused me to be here in this very moment.
Things have come so far. Despite the fact that I have done many things to ruin it all. Universe still moves forward with ever increasing speed and vigilance.
And so begins another chapter. Another experience. Something to learn from. Something to enjoy.
I can only dream of what comes next. The hard part is making those dreams come true.
Good things to come. lettersforben
And so here I am, awake when I shouldn't be. Child sleeping.
Yes, child. A son.
Benjamin.
How amazing.
Here I am. Awake. Contemplating the past - the present - the future.
Everything I have ever done has brought me to this moment. Now. Here.
Here I am. Alive. A father.
A new filter to look through. A new perspective.
My journey isn't over. His is just beginning. Wonderful things to come.
Retriangulated. Recalibrated.
Many things I regret. Many things I have learned from. Many things I have yet to do.
Sometimes I miss the way things were - change can be difficult to bare, but life must perpetuate itself.
Life is always moving forward, so I too must move forward. Lest I be lost in nostalgia.
But tonight is a night for just that - nostalgia.
Ah, Livejournal. You have brought me many things. Many experiences.
I am grateful for knowing you, for being a part of this grand experiment in human interaction.
Amazing how the universe can set things in motion. Cosmic effect. Caused me to be here in this very moment.
Things have come so far. Despite the fact that I have done many things to ruin it all. Universe still moves forward with ever increasing speed and vigilance.
And so begins another chapter. Another experience. Something to learn from. Something to enjoy.
I can only dream of what comes next. The hard part is making those dreams come true.
Good things to come. lettersforben