at bay

[vividdeception]

all daring aside
make my life a difference
desire and ambition
for excitement
would i give up what is

my hair is going to be chopped this weekend.


this is the style i'm leaning towards right now.
i've made the appointment but am already having second thoughts.

i've given in to homely lifestyles
drinking in the evening alone or with one other
i'm tired each night and have no desire to clean up after myself...
i wish i had funds to feel comfortable with,
make myself joyful with purchases perhaps

the snow came down last night, two feet.
i dug my car out this morning and dangerously drove it
my period needs to come, or else, i'll arrive into a new hell.
two days late.
i'm aching for mistakes unmade.
that's not true, i exaggerate
i want, and that's not enough.