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it's been a little bit of time
i have been dwelling on feelings and future
i believe it's ambition that i require
this weekend, four friends from out of state were supposed to arrive, but at the last minute, have canceled. i think dan is more disappointed than me because having company leads to our complete disassociation from living. at least for me, which causes me not to pick fights. last night i brought another one on i think, but at the same time, he is abrasive and does not listen to what i'm saying. if i'm consistently told that the way i feel is irrational, it's going to lead me to spiral further out of reality and sense and the tears will just pour and my mind will just clutter and send out a meaningless array of ideas and messeges of helplessness.
we went to see a boring movie last night, no country for old men, the new cohen brothers film. it was okay...i guess.
i went snowboarding on thanksgiving, and the saturday afterwards.
i landed my first 360 on thanksgiving and have been landing them with ease each chance i have had since. plans to go ride again this weekend i hope.
i am going to be home for christmas this year, i'm flying into omaha on december 20 and then back to denver on christmas day. dan is not coming with, but i dont think he cares to spend time with my family anyway. i dont really blame him, a lot of them are assholes. he will hopefully spend time with his daughter and snowboard and be productive.
i want to get him a new hoodie for christmas
these are the two main options:
(as a hoodie)
or
anyone's opinion?
i have not been full of hope, nor christmas cheer lately. ain't that typical.
i have been dwelling on feelings and future
i believe it's ambition that i require
this weekend, four friends from out of state were supposed to arrive, but at the last minute, have canceled. i think dan is more disappointed than me because having company leads to our complete disassociation from living. at least for me, which causes me not to pick fights. last night i brought another one on i think, but at the same time, he is abrasive and does not listen to what i'm saying. if i'm consistently told that the way i feel is irrational, it's going to lead me to spiral further out of reality and sense and the tears will just pour and my mind will just clutter and send out a meaningless array of ideas and messeges of helplessness.
we went to see a boring movie last night, no country for old men, the new cohen brothers film. it was okay...i guess.
i went snowboarding on thanksgiving, and the saturday afterwards.
i landed my first 360 on thanksgiving and have been landing them with ease each chance i have had since. plans to go ride again this weekend i hope.
i am going to be home for christmas this year, i'm flying into omaha on december 20 and then back to denver on christmas day. dan is not coming with, but i dont think he cares to spend time with my family anyway. i dont really blame him, a lot of them are assholes. he will hopefully spend time with his daughter and snowboard and be productive.
i want to get him a new hoodie for christmas
these are the two main options:
(as a hoodie)
or
anyone's opinion?
i have not been full of hope, nor christmas cheer lately. ain't that typical.