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dan is fasting before he plays the daft punk afterparty.
he's on day four. i've been very supportive of his strike on food and cleansing experience. it's noticable.
i came to bed in the wee hours of the morning, as the sun was rising and i was due to wake soon. he's been doing this for days now as he's been inspired to make music.
he wrapped me up in his arms and i slept more intwined in him than i've ever felt comfortable. half asleep he caressed my body and i felt so right.
i use this livejournal as a ventjournal to relieve myself of frustrations i have such a hard time speaking
i have been talking to dan about him pulling his weight and he understands.
i've been making sure i pick my battles as well, because i can get out of hand.
he has his faults and has had to take u-turns in life, but his perspective is so beautiful and clear. he does not falter when it comes to his own ideas and for that i respect him greatly.
how does one escape pattern and purgatory. it's difficult when one takes on a position that becomes incapcitating despite the fact that you know you have a choice to move on. i wonder how often i push dan to destruction and longing to get back on the road of travel and discovery. i wonder if i will ever be that person he needs in his life; to feel as if he is gasping for air without me. i feel that way for him.
perhaps it is maddness to rely on one person so deeply. but i believe in people as naiive as it may be, because people are the only thing in the world we can truly connect with.
a cold front is coming thru the area. the clouds and covering today and the air will have a breeze that will be such a relief. but the relief will truly arrive with the company that comes next week. friendly faces and a few carefree days will be grace.
it's about time for a cigarette.
he's on day four. i've been very supportive of his strike on food and cleansing experience. it's noticable.
i came to bed in the wee hours of the morning, as the sun was rising and i was due to wake soon. he's been doing this for days now as he's been inspired to make music.
he wrapped me up in his arms and i slept more intwined in him than i've ever felt comfortable. half asleep he caressed my body and i felt so right.
i use this livejournal as a ventjournal to relieve myself of frustrations i have such a hard time speaking
i have been talking to dan about him pulling his weight and he understands.
i've been making sure i pick my battles as well, because i can get out of hand.
he has his faults and has had to take u-turns in life, but his perspective is so beautiful and clear. he does not falter when it comes to his own ideas and for that i respect him greatly.
how does one escape pattern and purgatory. it's difficult when one takes on a position that becomes incapcitating despite the fact that you know you have a choice to move on. i wonder how often i push dan to destruction and longing to get back on the road of travel and discovery. i wonder if i will ever be that person he needs in his life; to feel as if he is gasping for air without me. i feel that way for him.
perhaps it is maddness to rely on one person so deeply. but i believe in people as naiive as it may be, because people are the only thing in the world we can truly connect with.
a cold front is coming thru the area. the clouds and covering today and the air will have a breeze that will be such a relief. but the relief will truly arrive with the company that comes next week. friendly faces and a few carefree days will be grace.
it's about time for a cigarette.