fuck you.
It's 7:04am and I just walked in the door. From where? Taking Kim home. A car ride in nothing but silence. My eyes on the way back were about to bust of tears and I just held them in creating blurry glare in my eyes. Kim and I for the past year have had this on and off friendship due to some stunts she has pulled. Last night she said, "Tara, we need to talk about something now that you and Shane are broke up I think it's safe to say." I sat there on the bed next her and listened. She took a deep breath and said, "Shane and I are together and was together when you two were together." I almost slapped her right there. Why did she think it was "safe to say" that she is still a backstabbing slut? I just told her to get her shit and I would take her home. Although, she insisted to argue with my reason for being pissed. We argued for almost an hour letting everything fall out. Funny thing was Shane called in the middle of all this. I hung up and blocked his number. Just like that.
I am mad at her there is no doubt about it. I don't think I can maintain a friendship with someone like that. I have said it before, but i'm more then serious now. She crossed the line. She was the other woman.
This is why I avoid relationships. I can't deal with the aftermath. I keep saying to myself, "I was not enough for him." Which was true or he would not sleep around. I can't help but wonder what I did wrong each and every time this has happen. Why can't I just be enough for someone? The question runs through my head anytime someone attempts to get close. Needless to say i'm still a wreck and letting all these questions run through my head. I wonder if I will ever just be enough.
I am mad at her there is no doubt about it. I don't think I can maintain a friendship with someone like that. I have said it before, but i'm more then serious now. She crossed the line. She was the other woman.
This is why I avoid relationships. I can't deal with the aftermath. I keep saying to myself, "I was not enough for him." Which was true or he would not sleep around. I can't help but wonder what I did wrong each and every time this has happen. Why can't I just be enough for someone? The question runs through my head anytime someone attempts to get close. Needless to say i'm still a wreck and letting all these questions run through my head. I wonder if I will ever just be enough.