Not everything is picture perfect
ah. I don't really know where to start. A lot of stuff has happened between me and Scotty and his family. Sometimes I get tired of it but Scotty is worth dealing with it. But I have found out that he doesn't tell me when he wants something. So 10 months after we have been dating I find this out.. not cool. But atleast I know, I need to improve, but change can be good I guess huh?
I have been really sad lately. Every little argument me and Scotty have, I either cry or want to cry. It's rediculous. Me and Scotty couldn't talk all day Sunday because of some crap that went on where I didn't want to drive Fawn to work every day but I shouldn't have to. I think that is straightened out sort of..
Scotty is going to his moms this weekend.. oh joy but I won't give him an anttitude about it, it's not very fair to him. I just miss him a lot when he is gone but I guess it's hard for him to understand. I mean I know he misses me but like he has his mom to keep him occupied, I have no one. So that's the thing. I have never really had a close relationship with my family like he has had with some of his family.
Anyways I showed him my hair down tonight. He said I still look beautiful. I think it made him happy. He said he feels closer to me because he feels like I trust him since I showed him.
I feel like I want to be with Scotty but ya know I won't be able to be happy with him if he supresses his feelings and tells me 10 months later... It hurt my feelings and that's why I am still fussing about it. But oh well, I will live. I still really don't have any friends. There are a few people I sit with at lunch but they are not like my best friends or anything. Ya know? I don't hang out with them outside of school.
I am downloading songs by 30 seconds to mars. They are an okay band.
But like I was saying I keep telling myself I am happy with Scotty but something is telling me different but I don't know what that is. So I'll leave it at that. I wish someone could help me I am kind of depressed right now, I just want to cry :-/
I have been really sad lately. Every little argument me and Scotty have, I either cry or want to cry. It's rediculous. Me and Scotty couldn't talk all day Sunday because of some crap that went on where I didn't want to drive Fawn to work every day but I shouldn't have to. I think that is straightened out sort of..
Scotty is going to his moms this weekend.. oh joy but I won't give him an anttitude about it, it's not very fair to him. I just miss him a lot when he is gone but I guess it's hard for him to understand. I mean I know he misses me but like he has his mom to keep him occupied, I have no one. So that's the thing. I have never really had a close relationship with my family like he has had with some of his family.
Anyways I showed him my hair down tonight. He said I still look beautiful. I think it made him happy. He said he feels closer to me because he feels like I trust him since I showed him.
I feel like I want to be with Scotty but ya know I won't be able to be happy with him if he supresses his feelings and tells me 10 months later... It hurt my feelings and that's why I am still fussing about it. But oh well, I will live. I still really don't have any friends. There are a few people I sit with at lunch but they are not like my best friends or anything. Ya know? I don't hang out with them outside of school.
I am downloading songs by 30 seconds to mars. They are an okay band.
But like I was saying I keep telling myself I am happy with Scotty but something is telling me different but I don't know what that is. So I'll leave it at that. I wish someone could help me I am kind of depressed right now, I just want to cry :-/