happy...
So I wrote my entry and when I clicked "update" and it just blanked my entry and I couldn't get it back. Urgh! Let's try this again:
I haven't done a post like this in a while - bare with me.
Last night the party was a lot of fun. I have never seen that many people at a party in Daytona - MANY cute guys too. Ahh that was super!! ;) I wish I wasn't sober, but eh it happens.
My biggest weakness:
A beautiful smile! - I am a sucker. They drive me absolutely crazy.
I thought I wanted a boyfriend this past month, but last night I realized I'm happy being single. I was having so much fun meeting new guys or just talking to some I already knew. I loved having that little rush for the cute guy in the beanie with the "to die for smile."
For so long I've just held these expectations for him. I know I have never held such feelings for another guy like I do for him. Not in the slightest. My feelings were/are just so genuine for him that it kills me when I'm with him. He's the one and only guy I have not pushed away. I play games with guys, I know I do. I get them right where I want them, the second it comes to being too serious I just push them away from me. They never compare to him, or even amount to him in the least. Come on, it's ME - the girls can stand behind me that no guy has ever made me this "weak." But gosh dammit he does a great job at it. BUT lately I've realized that I am content with our friendship, or whatever you want to call it. My expectations for him have dropped. I will continue to be his friend because he has not given me a reason not to be. I'm done with clawing through every emotion he has put me through. All in all, I think I'm finally ready to let go of these feelings.
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It felt good to hear from him again last night. I kind of missed him (but for obvious and not-so-obvious reasons) *shhh* hahaha. This song just brings back so many memories from last year, on so many different occasions.
*I discovered a new like for watching hockey games.
*I am happy with the people I surround myself with.
*I hate people who are fucking tool's. (GOSH DAMN IT AGGRAVATES ME!!!)
*I want to do better this semester - raise my GPA to a 3.7 from a 3.6!
*I am PUMPED for next Saturday (SoCo w/Ton & Jaime!!!)
*I am happy that I've lost 8lbs and have toned up! =) =)
***I want a money tree, can anyone help with that?
TONIGHT - The Roxy in Otown with the girls <3333
XoXo --
-- Aviv
I haven't done a post like this in a while - bare with me.
Last night the party was a lot of fun. I have never seen that many people at a party in Daytona - MANY cute guys too. Ahh that was super!! ;) I wish I wasn't sober, but eh it happens.
My biggest weakness:
A beautiful smile! - I am a sucker. They drive me absolutely crazy.
I thought I wanted a boyfriend this past month, but last night I realized I'm happy being single. I was having so much fun meeting new guys or just talking to some I already knew. I loved having that little rush for the cute guy in the beanie with the "to die for smile."
For so long I've just held these expectations for him. I know I have never held such feelings for another guy like I do for him. Not in the slightest. My feelings were/are just so genuine for him that it kills me when I'm with him. He's the one and only guy I have not pushed away. I play games with guys, I know I do. I get them right where I want them, the second it comes to being too serious I just push them away from me. They never compare to him, or even amount to him in the least. Come on, it's ME - the girls can stand behind me that no guy has ever made me this "weak." But gosh dammit he does a great job at it. BUT lately I've realized that I am content with our friendship, or whatever you want to call it. My expectations for him have dropped. I will continue to be his friend because he has not given me a reason not to be. I'm done with clawing through every emotion he has put me through. All in all, I think I'm finally ready to let go of these feelings.
---
It felt good to hear from him again last night. I kind of missed him (but for obvious and not-so-obvious reasons) *shhh* hahaha. This song just brings back so many memories from last year, on so many different occasions.
*I discovered a new like for watching hockey games.
*I am happy with the people I surround myself with.
*I hate people who are fucking tool's. (GOSH DAMN IT AGGRAVATES ME!!!)
*I want to do better this semester - raise my GPA to a 3.7 from a 3.6!
*I am PUMPED for next Saturday (SoCo w/Ton & Jaime!!!)
*I am happy that I've lost 8lbs and have toned up! =) =)
***I want a money tree, can anyone help with that?
TONIGHT - The Roxy in Otown with the girls <3333
XoXo --
-- Aviv