Hurry up Global Warming, it's not like the worthwhile people outweigh the awful ones.
There are times when I'd love to be an idiot. Just a big, fat, happy idiot, who is completely sure that everything he's done and every bad thing that happens to him is forgiven by and the work of some omnipotent God...But I'm not. I'm more or less convinced I'm too intelligent to enjoy life. My 70-100 or so years on this one planet out of billions in the Universe means absolutely nothing. No matter how much of an impact I make here, I'll never know everything or be everything I want to be. Period. I can certainly try, and I'm not giving up completely by any means, but still...
Despite the tone of that last paragraph, I've actually been making a conscious effort to be happier these days. I've been trying to focus on the things I do have rather than the things I do not, though it goes against the way my brain seems to work naturally. One quote I've always heard (and always hated, along with most Hippie bullshit), is "Happiness comes from within". Did the originator of this quote live on a desert island? Did he/she choose to ignore the world around him?
I have this brain that can't help but react to the actions of the other people in my life...When people are mean, I'm hurt, when people are nice, I'm excited, etc, etc...I'm not crazy, am I? Is this not how everyone else's brain works?
And now for the ever so shallow spark that caused this entry (Sorta)...It appears I have some sort of forehead tattoo visible only to girls that says: "If you have a boyfriend, please, please show interest in me! Time and time again...from the types who make no attempt to hide it, to my friend who works at my gym who goes to humorous lengths not mention her boyfriend around me, to one who might still not know that I knew. Oh well. Once again, I can only react instinctively to the actions of others, I can't control those actions.
Despite the tone of that last paragraph, I've actually been making a conscious effort to be happier these days. I've been trying to focus on the things I do have rather than the things I do not, though it goes against the way my brain seems to work naturally. One quote I've always heard (and always hated, along with most Hippie bullshit), is "Happiness comes from within". Did the originator of this quote live on a desert island? Did he/she choose to ignore the world around him?
I have this brain that can't help but react to the actions of the other people in my life...When people are mean, I'm hurt, when people are nice, I'm excited, etc, etc...I'm not crazy, am I? Is this not how everyone else's brain works?
And now for the ever so shallow spark that caused this entry (Sorta)...It appears I have some sort of forehead tattoo visible only to girls that says: "If you have a boyfriend, please, please show interest in me! Time and time again...from the types who make no attempt to hide it, to my friend who works at my gym who goes to humorous lengths not mention her boyfriend around me, to one who might still not know that I knew. Oh well. Once again, I can only react instinctively to the actions of others, I can't control those actions.