I hate my life.
Lay Me Down :: Wreckers
You let me in cause after all it seemed like the right thing to do
I close my eyes and let you fall
I wonder what you could possibly know
about breaking down that I don't
It's been a while since I begged for anything now I want more
So lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
I hear you say it's not the same
i'm sorry it's just something I just can't explan
So shut your mouth and hold me close
we know it's better than being alone
I don't mind killing time
as long as I can't see it in your eyes
lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
If wanting you is wrong then I'm wrong I admit it
Time after time you'll realize you don't mean it
lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
You don't understand me, you never even tried to anyway
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You can tell me I'm vulnerable, I'm stupid for beliveing but "dear" it won't get to me. I believe, and one day that will do me good. You go on, hating everyone you see, dissing everyone that speaks, and living in a mask, hiding because you are a coward. The people that have faith in life, that have faith in greatness are the one's that will eventually succeed. You will never be happy and go on living this so called "life." It saddens me. I wish you could be more. Don't think you know more than me. Don't think you are the smart one. THe only difference is I'm the believer. Yeah, I was a fool. But you were not a friend. You say I don't know you. I don't want to know you, becuase what I do know is failure. You do not know me at all...I tried. I didn't give up on you. I would do anything to be your friend remember that? I always wanted to befriend you and I don't know why. THis must be fate. SO that must be why I befriended you. You know me nothing at all. I would never sit there and bash you to LIz about how she was right. I believed in you. Because I want to give every person chances in life, to believe, to change, to know that someone believes. THat makes me stronger. Yes, I knew that I would get torn down. I knew that not everyone is trustworthy, but isn't that how you go through life? Just knowing they all lie. YOu will get no where on that. One day when you are older, and more mature you may start to understand me. Maybe you understand me now, and that's wonderful. I hope you do understand where I am coming from. You build this wall, and it's not going to work. It will fall down. I know I seem like the weak one for believing but, In my eyes...I am not. I am caring, and it will get me far. Yes, people will take advantage of me, but I will not give in. NOt yet. DOn't get me wrong, I hate my life right now, and could pretty much commit suicide. IN fact, I may go purchase a blade. But...one day. I have hope. It's the best thing to live off of. Because people just plain aren't. ANd that is where I made my mistake. GIving Michael everything I had. My heart...my life. Cuz now, I have to find my life, because it is gone. I will never understand how sorry you are. You are right about that. I do think you are sorry...ugh, no matter how hard that is to say. Please put yourself in my shoes. You weren't friend.
*You fucked my boyfriend. And no matter the story/excuses. Thats the bottom line.
I felt a dark thing coming on. I didn't know it was going to be soo soon. : (
~~Someone hold me~~
You let me in cause after all it seemed like the right thing to do
I close my eyes and let you fall
I wonder what you could possibly know
about breaking down that I don't
It's been a while since I begged for anything now I want more
So lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
I hear you say it's not the same
i'm sorry it's just something I just can't explan
So shut your mouth and hold me close
we know it's better than being alone
I don't mind killing time
as long as I can't see it in your eyes
lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
If wanting you is wrong then I'm wrong I admit it
Time after time you'll realize you don't mean it
lay me down I'm lonely
you don't understand me
you never even tried to anyway
You don't understand me, you never even tried to anyway
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You can tell me I'm vulnerable, I'm stupid for beliveing but "dear" it won't get to me. I believe, and one day that will do me good. You go on, hating everyone you see, dissing everyone that speaks, and living in a mask, hiding because you are a coward. The people that have faith in life, that have faith in greatness are the one's that will eventually succeed. You will never be happy and go on living this so called "life." It saddens me. I wish you could be more. Don't think you know more than me. Don't think you are the smart one. THe only difference is I'm the believer. Yeah, I was a fool. But you were not a friend. You say I don't know you. I don't want to know you, becuase what I do know is failure. You do not know me at all...I tried. I didn't give up on you. I would do anything to be your friend remember that? I always wanted to befriend you and I don't know why. THis must be fate. SO that must be why I befriended you. You know me nothing at all. I would never sit there and bash you to LIz about how she was right. I believed in you. Because I want to give every person chances in life, to believe, to change, to know that someone believes. THat makes me stronger. Yes, I knew that I would get torn down. I knew that not everyone is trustworthy, but isn't that how you go through life? Just knowing they all lie. YOu will get no where on that. One day when you are older, and more mature you may start to understand me. Maybe you understand me now, and that's wonderful. I hope you do understand where I am coming from. You build this wall, and it's not going to work. It will fall down. I know I seem like the weak one for believing but, In my eyes...I am not. I am caring, and it will get me far. Yes, people will take advantage of me, but I will not give in. NOt yet. DOn't get me wrong, I hate my life right now, and could pretty much commit suicide. IN fact, I may go purchase a blade. But...one day. I have hope. It's the best thing to live off of. Because people just plain aren't. ANd that is where I made my mistake. GIving Michael everything I had. My heart...my life. Cuz now, I have to find my life, because it is gone. I will never understand how sorry you are. You are right about that. I do think you are sorry...ugh, no matter how hard that is to say. Please put yourself in my shoes. You weren't friend.
*You fucked my boyfriend. And no matter the story/excuses. Thats the bottom line.
I felt a dark thing coming on. I didn't know it was going to be soo soon. : (
~~Someone hold me~~