147 - Something to be excited about
I'm going to California for spring break! This is way out of left field, but I couldn't be more excited. One of my good friends has family who lives there and she wanted to go visit. but couldn't afford it alone so she invited Becca and I to go along with her. There wasn't any thinking necessary when it came to warmer weather, the ocean, giant redwood trees and a complete change of scenery. (Maybe it'll even rain! I can't with how much I miss rain.)
I need this trip, I mean really need this. I've been trapped in this state for too long. I'm done with cold temperatures, snow, the damn inversion, feeling suffocated and unable to do anything. I'm the sort of person who needs to see new things, who needs to travel and have adventures. When I'm stuck in one place too long I go a little crazy. This is a well needed bit of rest and relaxation. And hopefully I'll be able to clear my head enough that I can get myself out of this post-college haze I find myself in.
It sucks, you know? I feel like a useless failure all the time. My anxiety is exhausting. I knew finding a job would be hard, but I guess I never expected it to be this hard. And all the stress sucked the creative juices right out of me. It's hard to write. It's hard to feel like I can write. California might be the rejuvenation I need. And even if it isn't, I have a plan for when I get back. I need to start free-lancing articles, sending short stories out, rebuilding my manuscripts. Even if I just get a part-time retail job for now. I need to pull myself together.
I need this trip, I mean really need this. I've been trapped in this state for too long. I'm done with cold temperatures, snow, the damn inversion, feeling suffocated and unable to do anything. I'm the sort of person who needs to see new things, who needs to travel and have adventures. When I'm stuck in one place too long I go a little crazy. This is a well needed bit of rest and relaxation. And hopefully I'll be able to clear my head enough that I can get myself out of this post-college haze I find myself in.
It sucks, you know? I feel like a useless failure all the time. My anxiety is exhausting. I knew finding a job would be hard, but I guess I never expected it to be this hard. And all the stress sucked the creative juices right out of me. It's hard to write. It's hard to feel like I can write. California might be the rejuvenation I need. And even if it isn't, I have a plan for when I get back. I need to start free-lancing articles, sending short stories out, rebuilding my manuscripts. Even if I just get a part-time retail job for now. I need to pull myself together.