this morning...2am
police came to our house, cuz our neighboor went crazy and all those drunkiness battle going on next door. it woke my parents up and my step dad got all fed up because my mother told me it has been goin on since i left to fsdb. I pitied my mom to deal with it at nights. I didnt think itd happen at my town. it is called NICEVILLE. hmm i guess it happens any where.
this guy..went to a place..partied. i just realized....drunks scares me. i feel like its something id not want to experience. I gues im senior soon and thing'll change. accordin to the calendar, it says id be older and party in college. I cannot imagine things like that. Well, i stopped partying. i miss drinking sometimes, but i dont miss seeing myself miserable. I havetn drank since new years eve..and im seeing lot of people party and get f****** up. I look back to my mother, and say "I dont want to be in that world any more" its like i want to hide now. Im goin to california soon and see my dad. Not something im forward to, but itll be last summer and my dad wont know. dark secert i know. One person asked me "Can i handle long distance relationship" Honestly i have not thought abut it. I had it with hubert, and it was very tough experience. In some way i wished i didnt have it....it putted me in deep shit. I told that person, i dont want to do that any more. maybe later. God knows. Im really confused abut things. Once u meet a new person or old friend, things are fine until one thing totally twisted your mind and u want to walk backward because of the experience ripped u out in the past. It sucks big time. My mind is fill of pollution going on and figuring whats matter with me tonight. I was fine whole time until tonight. Ehh,not a great feeling, i know. I guess im done expressing and all that. lot of my friends need my attention on line, ahh u know how it works. take care pace out!
this guy..went to a place..partied. i just realized....drunks scares me. i feel like its something id not want to experience. I gues im senior soon and thing'll change. accordin to the calendar, it says id be older and party in college. I cannot imagine things like that. Well, i stopped partying. i miss drinking sometimes, but i dont miss seeing myself miserable. I havetn drank since new years eve..and im seeing lot of people party and get f****** up. I look back to my mother, and say "I dont want to be in that world any more" its like i want to hide now. Im goin to california soon and see my dad. Not something im forward to, but itll be last summer and my dad wont know. dark secert i know. One person asked me "Can i handle long distance relationship" Honestly i have not thought abut it. I had it with hubert, and it was very tough experience. In some way i wished i didnt have it....it putted me in deep shit. I told that person, i dont want to do that any more. maybe later. God knows. Im really confused abut things. Once u meet a new person or old friend, things are fine until one thing totally twisted your mind and u want to walk backward because of the experience ripped u out in the past. It sucks big time. My mind is fill of pollution going on and figuring whats matter with me tonight. I was fine whole time until tonight. Ehh,not a great feeling, i know. I guess im done expressing and all that. lot of my friends need my attention on line, ahh u know how it works. take care pace out!