Sleep Deprivation
So, for some reason I was unable to sleep at all last night. I literally stayed up all night mostly trying to figure out what I'm going to be doing this coming year and summer, and I must say, when you're already feeling a bit tense about an issue, worrying about it in the middle of the night doesn't help, in fact for me, it can make me more crazy. I guess it's because in the middle of the night and the early morning your sense of reality and practicality is not too sharp. Anyway, the good thing is, I'm really excited about the next phase of my life. That may sound a bit dramatic, and I don't mean it to, but in a way it's true. I am now done with college and will work for some time then begin grad. school for 5-6 years until I truly begin my career- at least that's the plan for now. I'm looking forward to putting some money aside for travel this summer, and some research, too. I can't wait. I have a few places in mind I'd like to go back to, as well as new places, for sure. So, that will make this next phase pretty exciting. I have recently, consciously discovered that I am really fond of expensive bags and shoes. This may not be a good thing because it takes a lot of extra cash to support such purchases. Oh well, I'm not a drug addict, so at least I'm not physically harming myself and spending tons of money at the same time. I realize that I have not given out any juicy details whatsoever in this journal so far, and I'm not sure if that means I'm not really keeping a good journal or what. I don't want to stay on the surface, but at the same time I feel rather ambivalent about putting it all out there for anyone to read...hmmm. Any suggestions from those of you who have felt conflicted about this as well? Lol. Maybe I'm just more of the "journal reader" type as opposed to the "journal writer." Over the weekend I cut up a huge pumpkin by myself, I mean huge, seeded it, pealed it and made 3 fresh pumpkin pies, pumpkin soup, and froze a whole bunch for future use. It was pretty fun, and the dishes came out great. So, anytime you want to swing by for one of my gourmet pumpkin specialties...All right, g'night!