Writer's Block: Fixing the past.
There are so many things in my past that I wish I could change. Way too many to include in a simple LJ post, in fact. I can at least say that I have indeed corrected one of my biggest past mistakes as recently as six months ago. I totally f**ked up a relationship with a terriffic girl several years ago because I was too messed up in the head back then. I was totally unprepared for a serious relationship(even though I convinced myself that was what I wanted). I know now that I would have been too emotionally unstable for any type of relationship back then. I was drinking way too much then(even though I hid it pretty well). I also smoked way too much weed back then(I didn't know what the hell was going on in front of me.
About seven months ago(give or take a week or two), I started hanging out with Ria again. It was then that I realised that I wanted her in my life again(one way or another). We started out with light flirting, and it soon snow-balled into a friends with benefits arrangement. I knew that wasn't going to work, because I cared way too much for her to just use her as a booty call. Six months ago(this coming Friday), we made things official. We've been together ever since then, and I have a good feeling about this relationship this time around. I know that I can't leave her ever again...it would destroy the both of us.
About seven months ago(give or take a week or two), I started hanging out with Ria again. It was then that I realised that I wanted her in my life again(one way or another). We started out with light flirting, and it soon snow-balled into a friends with benefits arrangement. I knew that wasn't going to work, because I cared way too much for her to just use her as a booty call. Six months ago(this coming Friday), we made things official. We've been together ever since then, and I have a good feeling about this relationship this time around. I know that I can't leave her ever again...it would destroy the both of us.