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well, i had removed most of my friends from my journal and am not exactly sure why. i guess i got tired of wading through bullshit. jk!
well i said long ago that my journal is for me only, as a way to document my thoughts and feelings. its fun to go back through the past year or so and see the things i used to write about. in the beginning, it was therapuetic and i realize my posts just got shorter and shorter and gayer and gayer. (more gay and more gay? i unno). but anyhow, im moody and emotional right now. i miss simon. i can't sleep cuz i just keep thinking about him. its hard to even go a day without seeing him. you know, i had no idea what i was missing when i was with chris. i thought he was the best i could get-i thought only he could love me for who i was, when he was almost never happy with me and always wishing i were better. but with simon-he doesn't complain and loves me how i am, and thats just awesome. i dont have to apologize for the way i am, or promise i'll change. i'm just me and its good enough. and, yes, there is a age difference and yes i get touchy about it. but i am so fucking happy right now. i've never had someone treat me as though i were truely special and beautiful and significant.
so here's to you, simon, my love, my darling, my everything.
well i said long ago that my journal is for me only, as a way to document my thoughts and feelings. its fun to go back through the past year or so and see the things i used to write about. in the beginning, it was therapuetic and i realize my posts just got shorter and shorter and gayer and gayer. (more gay and more gay? i unno). but anyhow, im moody and emotional right now. i miss simon. i can't sleep cuz i just keep thinking about him. its hard to even go a day without seeing him. you know, i had no idea what i was missing when i was with chris. i thought he was the best i could get-i thought only he could love me for who i was, when he was almost never happy with me and always wishing i were better. but with simon-he doesn't complain and loves me how i am, and thats just awesome. i dont have to apologize for the way i am, or promise i'll change. i'm just me and its good enough. and, yes, there is a age difference and yes i get touchy about it. but i am so fucking happy right now. i've never had someone treat me as though i were truely special and beautiful and significant.
so here's to you, simon, my love, my darling, my everything.