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i feel like i need to go take a walk and scream at the top of my lungs. i dont know what i need to do, but i need to do something.
i talked to schuyler today. as friends. he told me hes great. theres no more guilt, or awkwardness, or romantic shit, its just friends. we talked about boys. about me liking someone. and being in denial about how much. and how i kissed someone else, but it didnt mean anything to me and was actually really funny. and how i have a big fucking crush like a 10 year old. and about how gay i am. and about how my mom told me no one else will ever date me because i suck and that was a one time thing. schuyler agreed with her but just to piss me off. it was good. i talked about boys with my ex-boyfriend and it was a good conversation. i think i'm in such a weird mood because i'm so fucking shocked and relieved i dont know what to do with myself. i love bright eyes, i really do, i havent gotten out of this phase, its been 3 or 4 years. i'm glad. aghdgsdajgdfgsdghfgdsfjsjdgkf
i talked to schuyler today. as friends. he told me hes great. theres no more guilt, or awkwardness, or romantic shit, its just friends. we talked about boys. about me liking someone. and being in denial about how much. and how i kissed someone else, but it didnt mean anything to me and was actually really funny. and how i have a big fucking crush like a 10 year old. and about how gay i am. and about how my mom told me no one else will ever date me because i suck and that was a one time thing. schuyler agreed with her but just to piss me off. it was good. i talked about boys with my ex-boyfriend and it was a good conversation. i think i'm in such a weird mood because i'm so fucking shocked and relieved i dont know what to do with myself. i love bright eyes, i really do, i havent gotten out of this phase, its been 3 or 4 years. i'm glad. aghdgsdajgdfgsdghfgdsfjsjdgkf