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i really cant sleep, its one in the morning and i have too much on my mind to sleep. i wouldnt mind but its mostly stupid stuff like why i cant seem to stop thinking about chris when i shouldnt but i know ive gotten in too deep when i never meant to and dont know what to do.
im also reflecting on how life is so shitty and crap to people, AV if your reading this i want to again give you a big hug and i wish there was more i could actually do! ive also done alot of swearing for you too. ;)
arrgh im in such a shit mood, ive been watching a video tape of my granddad before he died and he looked so ill, and now his brother just died so ive got the funeral friday {if they will release the body because its being treated as manslaughter} im trying so hard to not get down over this but i just go through these stupid little phases where it all just hits me again.
im also reflecting on how life is so shitty and crap to people, AV if your reading this i want to again give you a big hug and i wish there was more i could actually do! ive also done alot of swearing for you too. ;)
arrgh im in such a shit mood, ive been watching a video tape of my granddad before he died and he looked so ill, and now his brother just died so ive got the funeral friday {if they will release the body because its being treated as manslaughter} im trying so hard to not get down over this but i just go through these stupid little phases where it all just hits me again.