Here's to 2012.
A lot of shit happened in 2011. A LOT and most of it I do not want to get into. There were a lot of rough spots and a lot good things that happened. I guess that you just have to take life as it comes and go with it. You can make your own choices but you can not control the outcome that comes from those choices. Life is just one big lesson that needs to be learned. And if it doesn't kill you, then it will only make you stronger, or that's how it suppose to be. For the most part that holds true for me, although I do not like when things are out of my control. I am not a control freak by any means, I just don't like when things are decided for me. I get enough of that from my dad's side of the family, I don't need it from other people. A lot of people showed me their true colors this year and I wonder why I was friends with them for so long, but I am grateful for the memories that I have with them. Shit happens, you grow up and then move on. I stopped a lot of bad habits this year, and I am still working on giving up smoking, but that is probably not going to happen any time soon. I don't care if people say that it kills you faster. Everyday that you are alive is another chance to die. you never know what is going to happen. So, honestly do what you want, as long as it is within the laws. It is your life, people can tell you have to live it, but they can not force you to live the way that they want you to live. You should never make other people happy if it make you unhappy. You come first and then everyone else, because if you are unhappy then you will make everyone else around you unhappy. Life is not about making other happy, it is about making yourself happy and if people can not accept that then fuck them. They are not worth your time and effort. If someone wants you o change, then tell them to fuck off. You are your own person and no one can ever change to. You change and then you become a shell, a cold and lonely shell of the person you use to be. And then what is the point in living anymore if you are a shell? Anyways Happy fucking New year everyone. Hopefully 2012 is better then 2011 for me.
And yes this is depressing, I blame it on all the booze that I had tonight.