End of the Quarter
I am writing to just get my thoughts out. I am so incredibly busy with school right now that writing on here seems like a nice way to take a break. I have been wondering about what the point of having a degree in making things look awesome is. That pretty much sums up what I am going to get in the fall; A Bachelor of Science in Set and Exhibit design. This pretty much means that I can work in any medium to make anything look awesome. It just sounds so vein or something. I need something more fulfilling on top of that.
Relationship- I have had 0 romantic feeling relationships where I had butterflies. I have had few crushes. One was a girl, the other- a guy. The girl was someone I knew since the first grade and went after towards the end of my junior year. I was rejected. It hurt to see her with someone else. The guy was a good friend that I met in junior college who slowly slipped away, even though he may have done things with me that straight men don't do with other guys. I told him i liked him and he freaked. Since then, I haven't been attracted to anyone. I haven't let myself feel anything. I think something is wrong with me.
I have a good friend that I met in my art college. She and I are going to be roommates. I am not sexually attracted to her. I am positive I am gay. 23 and a virgin? That's me. I am not someone who want's to just throw away his virginity. I want to be with someone special, if I ever let myself fall in love. I have been too focused on school to even consider being in a relationship that could be the end of my relationship with my family. Aside from the gay thing, my parents are supportive of everything else, and they are the ones paying my bills right now, since I am too busy to have a job and support myself.
In other news, I will never take 5 classes at once again! Mostly because I won't have to. I have one week left, and I need to at least pass all of my classes. These 5 classes have left me with an unmanageable work load. I tried to make arrangements to not have to take 5 classes at once, but the school did not want to make special arrangements for me, but it has for other students who were and are in situations similar to mine. I am done ranting. I need to do my work.
Relationship- I have had 0 romantic feeling relationships where I had butterflies. I have had few crushes. One was a girl, the other- a guy. The girl was someone I knew since the first grade and went after towards the end of my junior year. I was rejected. It hurt to see her with someone else. The guy was a good friend that I met in junior college who slowly slipped away, even though he may have done things with me that straight men don't do with other guys. I told him i liked him and he freaked. Since then, I haven't been attracted to anyone. I haven't let myself feel anything. I think something is wrong with me.
I have a good friend that I met in my art college. She and I are going to be roommates. I am not sexually attracted to her. I am positive I am gay. 23 and a virgin? That's me. I am not someone who want's to just throw away his virginity. I want to be with someone special, if I ever let myself fall in love. I have been too focused on school to even consider being in a relationship that could be the end of my relationship with my family. Aside from the gay thing, my parents are supportive of everything else, and they are the ones paying my bills right now, since I am too busy to have a job and support myself.
In other news, I will never take 5 classes at once again! Mostly because I won't have to. I have one week left, and I need to at least pass all of my classes. These 5 classes have left me with an unmanageable work load. I tried to make arrangements to not have to take 5 classes at once, but the school did not want to make special arrangements for me, but it has for other students who were and are in situations similar to mine. I am done ranting. I need to do my work.