Dear Christ...
Dear Christ:
Several things lately have been occuring throughout my life that has been prying at my spirit. Everyday and night I pray to you that things will work themselves out. But I also remembered that you have to take it one blessing at a time. I thank you so much for everything you have given me in this troubled world. Things ponder my mind sometimes like "Why?" Why do people do so many ignorant things in the world and then they wonder why terrible things happen to them? Do they not know that if you scar a person the worst is going to happen to you. Why do they continue to harp the Holy Spirit as some mocking stone? Why do they continue to throw rocks at your son? All those question's ponder my head day to day. Still the question is not apparent to me. But I know someday, you will make sure the answer reaches me. I don't care how you send it, Lord -- telegram, email, etc. It just doesnt matter anymore.
I already know why my life has been so flourished with evil and disloyalty. As I was telling a close friend of mine, that she was a good person and she deserves everything that comes to her --she said the same for me. She truly wished that everyone would turn the other cheek and just leave me be and just let me live my life. I told her that probably will never happen, because you reap what you sow. I've done some terrible things in my life. But no matter how terrible they have been, I always knew that if you prayed about it that things would be at peace with you. I've also come to realize that you cannot pray only when bad things are going on in your life. You have to pray for the small things too. You have to continue to pray and thank you for allowing me to see another day and to see another sunset. I appreciate you so much for allowing me to return back to school. I'll admit, I wasnt focused on much my first Semester in my M.A. program which is the reason I was put on Academic Suspension. But this year, I would like for you to bless my spirit for me to be a productive student and to accept this job as a Manager head on. I have not been a very supportive person in my family and I have not contributed to this family. But I am living testiment because you allowed me to live another year on earth which allows me to make time for my family. Make time for all the people who care and adore me.
Lord, I would also like for you to watch out for the ones that do seem to care about me in this cold world. Even look over the ones who are possessed with nothing but the evil spirit; however I beg for mercy that you are easy on them when judgement day arrives for those. I also thank you for not judging me and acknowledging that I am a human being and I make mistakes. Someday people of the world will learn that you cannot go around burning bridges because one human cannot judge another human. Bless the ones who are homeless, bless the ones without a home to live in, bless the unemployed, annoint those souls who are on the verge of committing suicide. Forgive my foes, forgive my friends. Forgive the world for being imperfect. Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned..I am a misunderstood individual with a lot of good intentions in his divine heart and soul. I pray for the ones who have turned their backs on me at the hour I needed them the most. Pray for the dramatic, pray for the souls who know not what they do to affect me and the world around me. Help me become a more sociable person in society. Allow me to atleast trust one friend with all that I think of and my life. I would like to pray for my family to climb the ladder of success in life and never allow a revolving door shut in their face. Make me a stronger person and allow me to wear thick skin to the ones who gossip and place their labels on me. Pray for the ones who have turned my loving friends on me. With you in life I know I will get through it, one step at a time..one blessing at a time. Amen.
Several things lately have been occuring throughout my life that has been prying at my spirit. Everyday and night I pray to you that things will work themselves out. But I also remembered that you have to take it one blessing at a time. I thank you so much for everything you have given me in this troubled world. Things ponder my mind sometimes like "Why?" Why do people do so many ignorant things in the world and then they wonder why terrible things happen to them? Do they not know that if you scar a person the worst is going to happen to you. Why do they continue to harp the Holy Spirit as some mocking stone? Why do they continue to throw rocks at your son? All those question's ponder my head day to day. Still the question is not apparent to me. But I know someday, you will make sure the answer reaches me. I don't care how you send it, Lord -- telegram, email, etc. It just doesnt matter anymore.
I already know why my life has been so flourished with evil and disloyalty. As I was telling a close friend of mine, that she was a good person and she deserves everything that comes to her --she said the same for me. She truly wished that everyone would turn the other cheek and just leave me be and just let me live my life. I told her that probably will never happen, because you reap what you sow. I've done some terrible things in my life. But no matter how terrible they have been, I always knew that if you prayed about it that things would be at peace with you. I've also come to realize that you cannot pray only when bad things are going on in your life. You have to pray for the small things too. You have to continue to pray and thank you for allowing me to see another day and to see another sunset. I appreciate you so much for allowing me to return back to school. I'll admit, I wasnt focused on much my first Semester in my M.A. program which is the reason I was put on Academic Suspension. But this year, I would like for you to bless my spirit for me to be a productive student and to accept this job as a Manager head on. I have not been a very supportive person in my family and I have not contributed to this family. But I am living testiment because you allowed me to live another year on earth which allows me to make time for my family. Make time for all the people who care and adore me.
Lord, I would also like for you to watch out for the ones that do seem to care about me in this cold world. Even look over the ones who are possessed with nothing but the evil spirit; however I beg for mercy that you are easy on them when judgement day arrives for those. I also thank you for not judging me and acknowledging that I am a human being and I make mistakes. Someday people of the world will learn that you cannot go around burning bridges because one human cannot judge another human. Bless the ones who are homeless, bless the ones without a home to live in, bless the unemployed, annoint those souls who are on the verge of committing suicide. Forgive my foes, forgive my friends. Forgive the world for being imperfect. Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned..I am a misunderstood individual with a lot of good intentions in his divine heart and soul. I pray for the ones who have turned their backs on me at the hour I needed them the most. Pray for the dramatic, pray for the souls who know not what they do to affect me and the world around me. Help me become a more sociable person in society. Allow me to atleast trust one friend with all that I think of and my life. I would like to pray for my family to climb the ladder of success in life and never allow a revolving door shut in their face. Make me a stronger person and allow me to wear thick skin to the ones who gossip and place their labels on me. Pray for the ones who have turned my loving friends on me. With you in life I know I will get through it, one step at a time..one blessing at a time. Amen.