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So the kids come on monday. I'm a little nervous. there are so many facets of teaching to consider when your in the classroom. You have to conduct a lesson, assess their work, manage their behavior, take attendance, record infractions, prepare supplies, all in one period. Its such a multi task job, i have so much trouble focussing.
I worked out too hard the past two days. that combined with my new school schedule caused me to burn out. i burn out so easily. Burn out feels like a mild fever, hot sweats, muscle ache, fatigue, even after ten hours of sleep. It usually takes two days for me to recover from burn out.
My baby has been buisy lately. i am trying to respect his efforts. i cant help but be jelous for his attention. We put such pressure on each other. its so hard to know who's right. Its so hard to know if you are putting your own needs before the other person. I have this obsession with makeing everything feel equal. If its not equal i trip. Some people can roll with a little inequality but for me it needs to be 100% perfect or i start bitching. is total equality realistic or am i playing myself.
My friend John took me to get a manacure. i forget what its like to be treated to things. He paid. It was so sweet. i've never had my nails done- it felt so good. i hope me and angel climb out of our debt soon, we are getting so behind on rent and electricity and cable. i just cant cover it all... things need to get better soon.
I worked out too hard the past two days. that combined with my new school schedule caused me to burn out. i burn out so easily. Burn out feels like a mild fever, hot sweats, muscle ache, fatigue, even after ten hours of sleep. It usually takes two days for me to recover from burn out.
My baby has been buisy lately. i am trying to respect his efforts. i cant help but be jelous for his attention. We put such pressure on each other. its so hard to know who's right. Its so hard to know if you are putting your own needs before the other person. I have this obsession with makeing everything feel equal. If its not equal i trip. Some people can roll with a little inequality but for me it needs to be 100% perfect or i start bitching. is total equality realistic or am i playing myself.
My friend John took me to get a manacure. i forget what its like to be treated to things. He paid. It was so sweet. i've never had my nails done- it felt so good. i hope me and angel climb out of our debt soon, we are getting so behind on rent and electricity and cable. i just cant cover it all... things need to get better soon.