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i had some people over this weekend. its was cool... they liked my food, we had some fun. I tried to have an art party but that didnt go so well. i focussed more on food than i did the activity. i learned that i need to bring the supplies for my guests.
as you can see i am trying to sound positive but i really dont feel that way. theres alot of tears falling between he and i. alot of yelling. at the end i just feel so confused. i feel so strongly for him, as i am sure he does for me. we dont speak the same way and fighting erupts over missunderstandings.
november is not a good month for me. last year i said goodbye to someone i loved. this weekend marked the beginning of a new level of instability. my feelings make the situation worse, but i cant shut them off... i wish i had a conclusion for all of this, maybe it will come soon.
as you can see i am trying to sound positive but i really dont feel that way. theres alot of tears falling between he and i. alot of yelling. at the end i just feel so confused. i feel so strongly for him, as i am sure he does for me. we dont speak the same way and fighting erupts over missunderstandings.
november is not a good month for me. last year i said goodbye to someone i loved. this weekend marked the beginning of a new level of instability. my feelings make the situation worse, but i cant shut them off... i wish i had a conclusion for all of this, maybe it will come soon.