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Yestarday an old friend cursed me out on my voice mail. Someone who had helped me after the fire, given me a place to stay when i was homeless, helped move some of my things, and even fed me, now hates me. I never gave him enough in return. Some truth hurt his feelings. truth i wanted to share with him but couldnt because... well its complicated. i hate knowing he's hurting- i understand his pain. A friend of mine fell in love with someone I was trying to get over... i dealt with it and sustained that friendship. My angry friend is not me, and doesnt respond like me, and doesnt have to to be right.
The money is on its way!!! thank god, i need to get out of the hole i'm living in. its getting to real.. to depressing. We are back to looking for appartments and soon we will have a home! I hope.
So much has been happening, so much has been throwing me down. I dont know where to begin. I found some medicine to help me with my anxiety. I need it. Every night its the same thing, fear, worry, sleeplessness, jelousy, anger, over things that in the day time, seem manageable.
i'm tired, i love you all,
joson
The money is on its way!!! thank god, i need to get out of the hole i'm living in. its getting to real.. to depressing. We are back to looking for appartments and soon we will have a home! I hope.
So much has been happening, so much has been throwing me down. I dont know where to begin. I found some medicine to help me with my anxiety. I need it. Every night its the same thing, fear, worry, sleeplessness, jelousy, anger, over things that in the day time, seem manageable.
i'm tired, i love you all,
joson