Almost
Disheartened.
It came as a big blow, eventhough i tried to be mentally prepared like, two weeks ago. I saw my position fading away. I tried, really hard. but probably just not hard enough. I should've never been in it in the first place, cause coming out would just be almost impossible to bear and thats what im going through now. Today was my last chance, and i totally screwed it up, unknowingly ( I have to admit ). And honestly, until now, i still dont know why. Fought hard for it for one year and i lost it so easily. I've never been so out of breath and I desperatey need to tide over this soooooooooon D: