Sensimilla
Melanie and I just watched a rather interesting show on Discovery channel. It had to do with the sex and scent. It was rather interesting, although a lot of the stuff I had already known, and definatly shed some light on this whole situation Melanie and I have found ourselves in.
One of the facts they had said that people generally broke up around the three-and-a-half year to four year mark. That falls in line with Melanie and I. One thing that I would really like is if Melanie and I were to be able to get back together and stay that way, but after watching this show it's got me thinking that is never a possibility. If we do get together in another four years Melanie is just going to lose interest in my scent. Funny to think so much relys on something so small.
I always start these journals whenever I feel like I need a drastic change in my life. I always talk about how I am done with WoW or not smoking weed or going back to school, when in all reality I will probably do the same thing with this like I do everything else. I will go hardcore on it for awhile, and then totally lose interest. I am really bad at following through on stuff. I need to work on my consistency. I need to make baby steps I think. Pick one thing, just one, and go from there. I should probably pick the easiest to let go, which would be weed. Really I think if I make that one little step it will significantly help with the other stuff. It's pretty sad to see me write that. I have always been such an advocate for smoking weed, yet here I am turning in to another statistic. I definately don't want to be a hypocrit, and I have always said that once smokng starts to get in the way of your social/business life then it is time to put it down. Well, I think that time is now.
I have misssed too much of my youth because of weed. I am pretty sure I have done some sweet ass stuff, heck I can even remember some of the great weed related events. Going on that trip with Jeff to Idaho where we brought a shit ton of the stickiest-icky ever and just played Rainbow Six and LotR:RotK the whole time, and then smoked a shit ton and went to an amusement park. I remember my Moms garage and all the silly shit that went down in there; A.Rod almost knocking himself out on the garage door, ringing the wind chime everytime I won at foosball, losing my double-perc, leaving the space heater on, and plenty more. Really though I remember the amount of time I have missed out with friends because of it. It's not like its all weeds fault, I did make the decisions, it just made saying no so much easier.
I wonder why everytime I quit I always go back? Their must be something...
This time I am going to keep this updated and then maybe I can see some sort of correlation.