A Strange Day

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Well Today my mom came home from the Hospital!! She is fine,She is just really sore,and the doctors put her on a shit look of Vicadin..lol! I saw her car to day to,and the other cars in the accident. When I saw my moms car I cried.. I was thinking how I could of lost her, and I was just soo happy she was ok! I mean her car was pretty bad..I am just soo glad that she is ok!
In an hour I am going to see my friend Jason, because he is leaving to college tomorrow. I am going to miss him, he was like one of my best friends. SHIT, everyone is leaving me.Well I still have Vicki,Amy,Box,and Bono.But only Amy goes to my school! The rest all graduated..I have a feeling this school year I am going to be very Lonely...
Today John came over..it hurt soo bad to see him.. I mean yea I still love him,but I dont want to anymore..because it hurts. I dont know how to act around him..Today he told me he missed me and that he want to get back together sometime.But right now at the moment he is fucking another girl..so he cant get with me now..WHAT am I suppose to wait?? I am soo confused! I dont know what to do..I know I need to move on...or else its just going to hurt.
Well I am going to get ready I have to go to see Jason soon, I will write more lata.