I just need a break..
So yea since I am back to school,things are crazier with tennis and school work.Tennis is everyday after school..and then the games or practice on Saturday.The only day I truly get a break is Sunday. And now I might be working sundays.Ahhh my mind..Lets see what else, Oh yea my parents are talking seriously about moving to the south of chicago because we cant afford our house. I mean yea I hate Lake Zurich, but I dont want to go to the southside either. I mean I have some good friends that I have made around here.So I dont know, if I move I move. I have no control over that.I went to the hospital today..that was no fun.
Now me and John are totally through,like was dont even talk. It is for the better, cux everytime I talked to him I would just get really pissed,and then we would fight over some nonsence and it was getting me really depressed so its done. It is so crazy how a person that ment soo much to you and you were madly inlove with for a year..can change into nothing so quickly.But I needed to get away from him he was dragging me down, now I just need to forget all about the FUCker!
I am going to be driving in 3 months.. thats right watch out motherfuckas Claire is on the road!lol!I am getting my dads car..which is cool! I really dont care what car I get as long as I can drive. I am so tired of having people pick me up. FOr Example, Today I was suppose to hang out with Brandon, but his car was fucked up and couldnt drive so I couldn't see him! See if I could drive, that would of not been a problem!
Well now that I mentioned Brandon..Ahhh I love him!! well not like in love with him because we just meet,but you know what I mean. He is so sweet,like I feel like I can talk to him,and he understands and doesnt judge me. Like I told him things that I have never told anyone,I just feel so comfortable with him.I am just scared to get to attached again..then getting hurt! Cuz I have the worst luck with relationships, like I always choose assholes. But I really thing that Brandon is different, that is why I am opening up to him so quickly.I just dont see him calling me a bitch,or cheating on me,or using me.It is soo crazy one day Amy was just like I really think you should met this guy and then BAM! If Amy would of never introduced me,this wouldnt be happening! Amy I love you! Thanks doll.
What else..I havent drank for 1 month now. I am really impressed expecially since the shit thats been happening.It's quite wierd..its a big change!I use to drink every night, I guess it was because i surrounded my self by it.
You know what I really miss...Skating..Before I left to spain I would go skate eveyday! I think I am going to get back into that..
WEll I am outta here..
Now me and John are totally through,like was dont even talk. It is for the better, cux everytime I talked to him I would just get really pissed,and then we would fight over some nonsence and it was getting me really depressed so its done. It is so crazy how a person that ment soo much to you and you were madly inlove with for a year..can change into nothing so quickly.But I needed to get away from him he was dragging me down, now I just need to forget all about the FUCker!
I am going to be driving in 3 months.. thats right watch out motherfuckas Claire is on the road!lol!I am getting my dads car..which is cool! I really dont care what car I get as long as I can drive. I am so tired of having people pick me up. FOr Example, Today I was suppose to hang out with Brandon, but his car was fucked up and couldnt drive so I couldn't see him! See if I could drive, that would of not been a problem!
Well now that I mentioned Brandon..Ahhh I love him!! well not like in love with him because we just meet,but you know what I mean. He is so sweet,like I feel like I can talk to him,and he understands and doesnt judge me. Like I told him things that I have never told anyone,I just feel so comfortable with him.I am just scared to get to attached again..then getting hurt! Cuz I have the worst luck with relationships, like I always choose assholes. But I really thing that Brandon is different, that is why I am opening up to him so quickly.I just dont see him calling me a bitch,or cheating on me,or using me.It is soo crazy one day Amy was just like I really think you should met this guy and then BAM! If Amy would of never introduced me,this wouldnt be happening! Amy I love you! Thanks doll.
What else..I havent drank for 1 month now. I am really impressed expecially since the shit thats been happening.It's quite wierd..its a big change!I use to drink every night, I guess it was because i surrounded my self by it.
You know what I really miss...Skating..Before I left to spain I would go skate eveyday! I think I am going to get back into that..
WEll I am outta here..