The big DISCUSSION
I finally had the big discussion with my grand parents today. It was quite nerve racking buy I am very proud of myself. We took a trip to Atlantic City, I slept most of the way down there and we walked around one casino before stopping to eat at the next. Once we got to the second i said i was hungry so we all sat down to eat at one of the many restaurants in the Resorts Hotel and Casino.
Now during our entire meal and "conversation" i am thinking about the "BEST" time to tell them. I even remember thinking about backing out and just making sure that i told them before the day was over. But i said no, i will tell them before i leave this table. So we ate and talked and ate and talked. I ordered desert (which was the best part of the meal) then after that was over and the bill had come i still had not said anything. It was crazy, my adrenaline was rushing and i was a little frustrated with myslef.
So i just went for it, talking about my feelings about my transition so far being back at home and living under the same roof again and how that compared to me living on my own. I also talked about the prayer that it was taking in order for me to be both patient and obedient in the situation. Then i said there was something else that had been requiring a lot of prayer...and i just said it...
I'm gay.
I have to admit if felt quite good to finally say. I basically said how i felt and how important it was for the poeple around me that "love" me to be supportive and that i would answer ANY questions to be as understanding with the fact that it may be shocking for them. blah blah blah...
But there it was, quite and eventful day...
THANK YOU JESUS FOR SUCH A DAY!!!!
Now during our entire meal and "conversation" i am thinking about the "BEST" time to tell them. I even remember thinking about backing out and just making sure that i told them before the day was over. But i said no, i will tell them before i leave this table. So we ate and talked and ate and talked. I ordered desert (which was the best part of the meal) then after that was over and the bill had come i still had not said anything. It was crazy, my adrenaline was rushing and i was a little frustrated with myslef.
So i just went for it, talking about my feelings about my transition so far being back at home and living under the same roof again and how that compared to me living on my own. I also talked about the prayer that it was taking in order for me to be both patient and obedient in the situation. Then i said there was something else that had been requiring a lot of prayer...and i just said it...
I'm gay.
I have to admit if felt quite good to finally say. I basically said how i felt and how important it was for the poeple around me that "love" me to be supportive and that i would answer ANY questions to be as understanding with the fact that it may be shocking for them. blah blah blah...
But there it was, quite and eventful day...
THANK YOU JESUS FOR SUCH A DAY!!!!