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oh god so tired I can't seem to keep my eyes open...so tired, no idea why.
So I'm still all locked up in my guilded cage, only allowed the computer soI can compose, I don't think they wealise I'm online, otherwise this would be cut too, of course they may well check this, but really who cares?
Today at least I saw people, Darith came and brought the children, but I started dozing off so she left after a while, it was good to see them though...
Eric came too, he is here, stole Marius' credit cards and flew over to see me....I can't believe he did it, but still, it was good to see him. I don't really understand, after some of the things that happened recently, yet I am not upset with him at all. He was sweet, we talked, held each other, it was comforting, he has his problems and I have mine, we are so far apart and so the same, I think I understand him well, and I think he understands me. My little brother....*sigh* aparrently he fels the same, but it makes me sad, when Marius does love Eric so much yet they are not closer.
Marius, I do miss him....I was just looking forward to having a real relationship, a friendship with the man, getting to know each other more. An interesting similarity, besides our appearance....he talks in his sleep, and I have often been told I do as well, funny, I spend a week by his side in Paris and it is not until we are in Canada I discover it. I wish I didn't.
Vincent....oh my darling Vincent I love you. I love you it is simple, simple and plain. I don't know what to say beyond that. No matter what I always will...
Sir...yes I use the term deliberately but if he were to read this he would still know how I feel. I have loved you for longer than I care to admit and will continue to do so....
Eric assures me of their affections and that once the hangovers clear all will be well, but I have reservations.
Cain and Abel came this afternoon as well, they tell me that Vincent and Marius have been charged with all kinds of shit because of me. At 2 am here, on Saturday (friday midday in Canada) they will be in court....all because of me. I hate to think of it and yet there is nothing I can do about it trapped here, I have to find some way to distract myself, being nocturnal you know I will be awake....but I would be with the worry anyway. I think...ahhh hell I don't know....I just want to be left alone, and I am not, they never leave me in peace, I can't answer my own home, I can't fucking move becuase these cunts have decided I am a danger to myself, and theya re not willing to risk their asset so clost to the tour, their fucking PROPERTY!
Ever wonder why I campaign against Meta Human Registration? I can't be a fucking citizen, have no say in the way this world is run, but ladies and gentlemen no way am I endangering this tour, only wany an elf gets his vioce heard in a human world.
I hate all this, I hate it, I want my loves and to go home.....and I hate to say it but fuck I want a hit....
at any rte I can't seem to stay awake, slept pretty constantly since I was brought here....go crash now
So I'm still all locked up in my guilded cage, only allowed the computer soI can compose, I don't think they wealise I'm online, otherwise this would be cut too, of course they may well check this, but really who cares?
Today at least I saw people, Darith came and brought the children, but I started dozing off so she left after a while, it was good to see them though...
Eric came too, he is here, stole Marius' credit cards and flew over to see me....I can't believe he did it, but still, it was good to see him. I don't really understand, after some of the things that happened recently, yet I am not upset with him at all. He was sweet, we talked, held each other, it was comforting, he has his problems and I have mine, we are so far apart and so the same, I think I understand him well, and I think he understands me. My little brother....*sigh* aparrently he fels the same, but it makes me sad, when Marius does love Eric so much yet they are not closer.
Marius, I do miss him....I was just looking forward to having a real relationship, a friendship with the man, getting to know each other more. An interesting similarity, besides our appearance....he talks in his sleep, and I have often been told I do as well, funny, I spend a week by his side in Paris and it is not until we are in Canada I discover it. I wish I didn't.
Vincent....oh my darling Vincent I love you. I love you it is simple, simple and plain. I don't know what to say beyond that. No matter what I always will...
Sir...yes I use the term deliberately but if he were to read this he would still know how I feel. I have loved you for longer than I care to admit and will continue to do so....
Eric assures me of their affections and that once the hangovers clear all will be well, but I have reservations.
Cain and Abel came this afternoon as well, they tell me that Vincent and Marius have been charged with all kinds of shit because of me. At 2 am here, on Saturday (friday midday in Canada) they will be in court....all because of me. I hate to think of it and yet there is nothing I can do about it trapped here, I have to find some way to distract myself, being nocturnal you know I will be awake....but I would be with the worry anyway. I think...ahhh hell I don't know....I just want to be left alone, and I am not, they never leave me in peace, I can't answer my own home, I can't fucking move becuase these cunts have decided I am a danger to myself, and theya re not willing to risk their asset so clost to the tour, their fucking PROPERTY!
Ever wonder why I campaign against Meta Human Registration? I can't be a fucking citizen, have no say in the way this world is run, but ladies and gentlemen no way am I endangering this tour, only wany an elf gets his vioce heard in a human world.
I hate all this, I hate it, I want my loves and to go home.....and I hate to say it but fuck I want a hit....
at any rte I can't seem to stay awake, slept pretty constantly since I was brought here....go crash now