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My life has been so fucking crazy lately.
I've been EVERYWHERE.
I've seen nearly .... EVERYONE. Even Alexi, who rubbed his lips against my earlobe when he held me the other night. That moment's frozen in my memory, and yet I feel hollow towards it. It would have been amazing if... if it hadn't been him. I'm numb to the whole thing, partly because I don't want to lose my friendship with him or hurt him in any way.
I'm lusting for someone - some people - and I don't want to.
I'm trying to shut my body down.
I've been EVERYWHERE.
I've seen nearly .... EVERYONE. Even Alexi, who rubbed his lips against my earlobe when he held me the other night. That moment's frozen in my memory, and yet I feel hollow towards it. It would have been amazing if... if it hadn't been him. I'm numb to the whole thing, partly because I don't want to lose my friendship with him or hurt him in any way.
I'm lusting for someone - some people - and I don't want to.
I'm trying to shut my body down.