Update
So, now that I've played with settings somewhat...a real entry. Andy is amazing. Amazing. with a capital A. He's so there for me and loving and I love him so much it scares me some. I'm a little afraid sometimes that I'm not holding back and that it'll end up with me smashed into little bits, but I can't really find any basis in him for this fear.
Todd's an ass but what else is new? He totally flaked on me. He was supposed to watch Isaiah so I could have an interview but cancelled last minute and my mom's in San Diego so I had to reschedule for monday. He insisted that he was all vague and saying that he thought he could or said maybe or some other b.s. but I remember him saying sure, no problem he could do it. Blech to him anyway.
Isaiah's watching The Incredibles. Its a nice break from Finding Nemo ('saiah's favorite movie). Pixar is awesome.
So, yeah, still no car, no job, but at least I've got love and according to the Beatles and maybe other older sources depending on who you ask...that's all I need. Sometimes I believe it. Yes, yes I'm that fargone. Andy's at class right now being brilliant and unfortunately not here. Life is good as far as he's concerned.
I guess I kinda feel like I'm ending one life and beginning a new one. Despite the lack of personal resources and car and such, I like this life much much better. I'm actually happy a lot of the time. I laugh. It probably sounds silly but I hadn't realized how little I laughed until I started laughing again. I was like a zombie married to Todd, feeling only the briefest shallow echoes of what I could be feeling.
Andy called yay! He'll being coming home soon. They just have to discuss the film then he's headed out.
Todd's an ass but what else is new? He totally flaked on me. He was supposed to watch Isaiah so I could have an interview but cancelled last minute and my mom's in San Diego so I had to reschedule for monday. He insisted that he was all vague and saying that he thought he could or said maybe or some other b.s. but I remember him saying sure, no problem he could do it. Blech to him anyway.
Isaiah's watching The Incredibles. Its a nice break from Finding Nemo ('saiah's favorite movie). Pixar is awesome.
So, yeah, still no car, no job, but at least I've got love and according to the Beatles and maybe other older sources depending on who you ask...that's all I need. Sometimes I believe it. Yes, yes I'm that fargone. Andy's at class right now being brilliant and unfortunately not here. Life is good as far as he's concerned.
I guess I kinda feel like I'm ending one life and beginning a new one. Despite the lack of personal resources and car and such, I like this life much much better. I'm actually happy a lot of the time. I laugh. It probably sounds silly but I hadn't realized how little I laughed until I started laughing again. I was like a zombie married to Todd, feeling only the briefest shallow echoes of what I could be feeling.
Andy called yay! He'll being coming home soon. They just have to discuss the film then he's headed out.