depressed like usual.....
*sigh* still at school....debating whether or not to walk to McDonalds and get dinner, or just skip dinner completely.....it probably would be healthier for me to get dinner, considering the only meal i had today was Lunch, and even that wasnt very big....oh well....starving myself gives me something to complain about, and life just isnt worth living if you dont have at least one thing to bitch about.....*looks at the clock* damn...still got a half an hour till the game starts, and an hour and a half after that until i have to go home......*crys* I dun wanna....the only thing i do at home anymore is hide in my room, and participate in screaming contests with my stepmother when she triumphantly finds something to punish me for......and then i go back to my room and cry about my pathetic existance....its quite sad......and depressing....and when i get depressed, i become suicidal....and when that happens, i go crazy and make another poorly planned attempt..and it fails....its like im immortal or something.....ooh ooh! here comes the good part! After I have survived the screaming, yelling, crying, and suicide attempts, guess what happens? It happens all over again! Its like a never ending cycle...one of these days though, i will succeed at my suicide, and the cycle will be broken forever......Ok...i guess i should go tromp down to the gym and begin the process of filming...before anyone screams at me.....