Hmm, compeled to write
Well, I have no real clue what to write because there's a lot to say. Again it would be safe to say I have had a decent week and weekend. More over than most, I have come to a basic understanding of somethings in life. One is to never worry about things that you can not control, never worry about things you can not change. Why worry about things in life that you have no real control over. However, if you become happy with things and with yourself, things tend to go better for you than last expected. Maybe philosphy has some odd role in what I am saying and maybe what I am saying is also coming from my heart but, I know what I know now and in the now. I have always tried to hide my feelings and supress my emotions and not be comunicable and adimate towards them. That is somethign that will cause turmoil and an unsurmountable destruction that is inevitable if we don't watch it. I know I have had my life's lessons and have had tests I should have past. I don't think without any doubt in my mind that the tests I have taken now has made me stronger. As I was told before, " A lepard may be able to change his ways, but he can not change his spots." This is true to a certian extent, but even in th emost adverse conditions a lepard can change what ways and actions that can in ways change his spots. IE. going to a new local that makes it seem he is no longer there and is fully concealed, or become aware of everything around him and make himslf known. I guess what I am trying to say he may not be able to change his spot pattern, but he can surely learn to use them in a better way which is more productive than destructive. I suppose I have grown more so in the past few months than anyone has in a life time I would say, but I will not claim to know everything but I do know this. You only become stronger as time goes on and only become wiser with age. I know I will have to cut this short because of library distractions and time constraints but I know whats in my heart and I would fight to th ebitter end to save them and protect them. they are lifes little treasures and reminders of why we al exsist and why we ae all alive today. there are things we just know is right and nothing will stand in lifes way to return balance to its own ways. Like I was told once before by a great and dear friend of mine; " You can only down life once and you can only keep it down for a short while and life will fight back and get up fighting." With that said I suppose I should wait till another day to finish this but to all my friends and family. I love you all with the greatest part of my heart. you all have been there for me in my time of need and I will always be there for you, I am but a phonecall away. Take care all be safe and peace be with you all.