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I feel like I have been ignoring all my friends. This is neither done on purpose nor is it limited to my friends. I have been avoiding everything recently. I avoid my room and my computer because I am also avoiding writing, even though it is my major and will hopefully surround me my whole life. I am disconnected from my family, and I have just recently come to the conclusion that that is a very bad thing. I am running away from something, and I don't know what it is, but it's scary as hell and getting closer.
Most of the people I talk to on a regular basis work with me at the Olive Garden, and though they are cool people, they aren't the ones who got me through all the tough times that make me who I am today. It seems as though my life is on pause while I, for lack of a better phrase, "find myself." But if I spend any more time groping around this dark room for a flashlight, the world will eventually find the door that leads outside and enjoy some real sunlight without me.
I'm sorry for being so standoffish. I don't know if things will get better, but I want them to.
Most of the people I talk to on a regular basis work with me at the Olive Garden, and though they are cool people, they aren't the ones who got me through all the tough times that make me who I am today. It seems as though my life is on pause while I, for lack of a better phrase, "find myself." But if I spend any more time groping around this dark room for a flashlight, the world will eventually find the door that leads outside and enjoy some real sunlight without me.
I'm sorry for being so standoffish. I don't know if things will get better, but I want them to.