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This drop dead gorgeous boy was actually giving me the time of day, but I think I'm going to drop the idea of him. I was for sure reminded of how close he is to the theater tonight. Ewwww.... theater incest is wrong. Even if he's only a second cousin.
I'm still struggling with the idea though... of having a rock solid relationship. blah blah blah... nothing new. whine whine whine... I'm lonely, someone love me! Pleeease???? School and work and all those things that we are suppose to live by get so tiresome without a love to conquer all. I'm misunderstood *pout*. I need someone to unfold me. And HAHAHAHA if I think this little boy will have anything to do with any of that. But fuck, I was curious, so what can I do? Not even sexually attracted... just curious. Although man... the idea of having something sexually and emotionally fulfilling at once just makes me melt away... I can't really have just one or the other. It's got to be both. Together... and I haven't had that. When I do it'll be right, I guess. And in the end that's what will count. Right... just have to keep reminding myself of that now :).
Those boys... they're so soft and decieving. I must remind myself they're evil. Oh, FYI, boy who is giving me attention is best friend of boy whom is mentioned in entry below. Fuckers...
(that's another thing. I've got to stop talking like a sailor... it's making me look alot less intelligent that I can really be... )
I'm still struggling with the idea though... of having a rock solid relationship. blah blah blah... nothing new. whine whine whine... I'm lonely, someone love me! Pleeease???? School and work and all those things that we are suppose to live by get so tiresome without a love to conquer all. I'm misunderstood *pout*. I need someone to unfold me. And HAHAHAHA if I think this little boy will have anything to do with any of that. But fuck, I was curious, so what can I do? Not even sexually attracted... just curious. Although man... the idea of having something sexually and emotionally fulfilling at once just makes me melt away... I can't really have just one or the other. It's got to be both. Together... and I haven't had that. When I do it'll be right, I guess. And in the end that's what will count. Right... just have to keep reminding myself of that now :).
Those boys... they're so soft and decieving. I must remind myself they're evil. Oh, FYI, boy who is giving me attention is best friend of boy whom is mentioned in entry below. Fuckers...
(that's another thing. I've got to stop talking like a sailor... it's making me look alot less intelligent that I can really be... )