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I've spent the past few days over-analysing myself, and I think I've come to the conclusion that I have a strong desire to be someone I'm not. Rather, I have a horrible urge to pretend most of my life. I blame this mostly on my 3 year job at CC and Company in combination with high school where I was a different person between going to school, going to work, going home, and then my social life between The Core. I've only come to this conclusion with subtle evidence; my clothing seems to be cut in 3rds...some being over formal/ "im cool because im wearing dressy clothes"...some dark "im cool because I look like I dont care...and i'll probably hurt you in youre sleep"...some other(spencer says emo) "I wear it because it was on sale...and i guess i like it." Any different day for any occassion I can be a different Greg(collect them all!).
I think this goes along with my split future agenda. On one hand i want to be famous and paid for and be nothing but a blood sucking money eater of the world, whereas the other wants to just get to a relitavely nice job in life...with some travel...and just be happy. Of course being happy is a relative abomination in itself, apparently.
I'm way past the age of "finding myself" so I believe I've just settled on the fact that I'm a person of multiple faces, its not so bad, it even comes in handy. I'd say I'm quite happy with myself, and not worried about me one bit, I think I'm just more concerned with where my life is going.
For now, I'm going to try and get back into Hollywood (Brittany we need more pictures ;) ). I enjoyed that...and my movie comes out next month. I've also been having an urge to go out and travel and what not. The guys and myself are planning a trip to San Diego for a weekend in June, also last night I went to this Hookah Bar in Anaheim that had freestyle mic hip hop and rap battles on Wednesday nights, I immediatley thought of Craig (I'll keep a seat warm for ya there till you get back to the States).
I also should invest in a girlfriend... a GOOD one...might be too out of my price-range though...do they take down payments?
I think this goes along with my split future agenda. On one hand i want to be famous and paid for and be nothing but a blood sucking money eater of the world, whereas the other wants to just get to a relitavely nice job in life...with some travel...and just be happy. Of course being happy is a relative abomination in itself, apparently.
I'm way past the age of "finding myself" so I believe I've just settled on the fact that I'm a person of multiple faces, its not so bad, it even comes in handy. I'd say I'm quite happy with myself, and not worried about me one bit, I think I'm just more concerned with where my life is going.
For now, I'm going to try and get back into Hollywood (Brittany we need more pictures ;) ). I enjoyed that...and my movie comes out next month. I've also been having an urge to go out and travel and what not. The guys and myself are planning a trip to San Diego for a weekend in June, also last night I went to this Hookah Bar in Anaheim that had freestyle mic hip hop and rap battles on Wednesday nights, I immediatley thought of Craig (I'll keep a seat warm for ya there till you get back to the States).
I also should invest in a girlfriend... a GOOD one...might be too out of my price-range though...do they take down payments?