A long awaited update
Once again, I've emerged from wherever I am hiding
Time really flies and yeah it's been a long time since I've updated
Sometimes I compare myself to the Hermit from the tarot deck
Detached from the outside world and many other things
I know that it's not healthy but I'm afraid that some scars of the past still run deep...
My parents have left for Korea this time, I'll be spending a month with them next month
That would be when my brother is having his holidays
Right now I'm spending my long awaited 3 mths of holidays as I end my freshman year in uni
Year 1 of uni was not bad but it could have been better if I had allowed myself opportunities I passed up
Do I regret? A little but I am thankful for the friends that I've managed to make
Though we're not of the same class, it was nice knowing that there were people who cared
I guess in the first place, I never really like conforming to people ideals especially when enforced
Face it, I am my own person and everybody is different
This year an old classmate of mine passed away in a motor accident
He left the world less than a week after my 21st birthday
Forgive me that I won't mention his identity here
That was partially a reason why I did not make any updates
I received a phone call from someone I never expected but I am thankful that he did call
Something inside shook and shattered as realization set in
I thought that I was strong. Death is after all something natural, a way of life.
The moment we entered this world, we are dying. We are dying now as we are now living.
But my resolve was weakened and taxed
I called people, many who I never thought of ever meeting and calling again to spread the message
Each time I picked up the phone call another, my soul felt heavier and weaker
I even called Muneera who was in Australia
When I attended his wake I did not dare to look at his body
Though I knew it was the last time I would 'see' him
Fear held me like a fierce vice and then I let guilt consume me after my actions
Somehow the reality of life struck me and so did the truth of human mortality
We are not as invincible as we like to believe ourselves to be
As the human race advances with new technologies and wonders, how often do we forget we are to put it simply, only human?
One too many times.
Time pass, my thoughts are much calmer now
Tears shed, words spoken, memories shared and life goes on
Holding on to him won't do any good, so I let go now
Knowing that he had once been a friend
Remembering the kindness he had once shown me
Hoping that he will understand my silence and weakness of then and now
And that he may find peace
Farewell to a person who was a friend and classmate I knew and cared
Time really flies and yeah it's been a long time since I've updated
Sometimes I compare myself to the Hermit from the tarot deck
Detached from the outside world and many other things
I know that it's not healthy but I'm afraid that some scars of the past still run deep...
My parents have left for Korea this time, I'll be spending a month with them next month
That would be when my brother is having his holidays
Right now I'm spending my long awaited 3 mths of holidays as I end my freshman year in uni
Year 1 of uni was not bad but it could have been better if I had allowed myself opportunities I passed up
Do I regret? A little but I am thankful for the friends that I've managed to make
Though we're not of the same class, it was nice knowing that there were people who cared
I guess in the first place, I never really like conforming to people ideals especially when enforced
Face it, I am my own person and everybody is different
This year an old classmate of mine passed away in a motor accident
He left the world less than a week after my 21st birthday
Forgive me that I won't mention his identity here
That was partially a reason why I did not make any updates
I received a phone call from someone I never expected but I am thankful that he did call
Something inside shook and shattered as realization set in
I thought that I was strong. Death is after all something natural, a way of life.
The moment we entered this world, we are dying. We are dying now as we are now living.
But my resolve was weakened and taxed
I called people, many who I never thought of ever meeting and calling again to spread the message
Each time I picked up the phone call another, my soul felt heavier and weaker
I even called Muneera who was in Australia
When I attended his wake I did not dare to look at his body
Though I knew it was the last time I would 'see' him
Fear held me like a fierce vice and then I let guilt consume me after my actions
Somehow the reality of life struck me and so did the truth of human mortality
We are not as invincible as we like to believe ourselves to be
As the human race advances with new technologies and wonders, how often do we forget we are to put it simply, only human?
One too many times.
Time pass, my thoughts are much calmer now
Tears shed, words spoken, memories shared and life goes on
Holding on to him won't do any good, so I let go now
Knowing that he had once been a friend
Remembering the kindness he had once shown me
Hoping that he will understand my silence and weakness of then and now
And that he may find peace
Farewell to a person who was a friend and classmate I knew and cared