Son of a screw-up
We placed second at the CBI regionals, lost to Southern Virginia in the finals. I was impressed by the teamplay. Of course I get back and everything goes to hell.
Well actually it started Thursday night. Lauren was off interviewing for some internship with Vanguard I think. And I've just been jealous of the whole thing, and I had to call her to tell her why. When I was back in senior year, I was thinking of all the things I was going to do with it. Of course I failed miserably, while she is off doing those things. And it just reminds me of every mistake I made. I may not have screwed up as bad as my father, but I still get haunted by my past.
Of course I try to just explain my dreariness about it, and it just makes her feel worse, making me feel uber-shitty.
And we drove in tonight around midnight, she was nearby seeing a movie. I need to get a ride back to my apartment, so I am forced to say no. I'm still up now, so I really wanted to go, only to get attitude back. In fact, everyone's been giving me attitude since I came back. I should've stayed over in Knoxville.
Well actually it started Thursday night. Lauren was off interviewing for some internship with Vanguard I think. And I've just been jealous of the whole thing, and I had to call her to tell her why. When I was back in senior year, I was thinking of all the things I was going to do with it. Of course I failed miserably, while she is off doing those things. And it just reminds me of every mistake I made. I may not have screwed up as bad as my father, but I still get haunted by my past.
Of course I try to just explain my dreariness about it, and it just makes her feel worse, making me feel uber-shitty.
And we drove in tonight around midnight, she was nearby seeing a movie. I need to get a ride back to my apartment, so I am forced to say no. I'm still up now, so I really wanted to go, only to get attitude back. In fact, everyone's been giving me attitude since I came back. I should've stayed over in Knoxville.