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Last night I had a dream about my mum. Well, kind of, but what I remember most, right before I woke up, was being at home in our playroom/kitchen area...I was helping my mum to bed, she was complaining of being tired, or sick, not sure which (is there any difference in this dream?) and she needed help getting to bed, but was happy sleepy, which was nice. But as I went to help her, I realised she was more of a young woman, and I had to wrap some sort of flannel nightgown around her. This was when I noticed that she had the body that I have NOW, ie she was me, and when I got her to lay down (in the old kid's bed, which is in our playroom) I could finally get a scent of what my mum used to smell like...Which is, her perfume and slight odour of stale cigarettes and extra chewing gum. To me, this was heaven, and has been all day as that smell, which I have so long craved in my dreams and awake these last three years, was made real. I can still smell it, and its so comforting. Maybe I was needing her to be close to me right now. I really do miss her so much.